Alamak... life can never be much simpler dis way man... no internet, no nothing to keep me entertained. i think i am going crazy any moment in my life.... dunno lei... sometimes i reli find it mundane... argh

i dun seem to have much of a choice except to bear wit it and work hard and save up to have a place i call my own.. i am so physically and mentally drained.. maybe cos i dun hv someone whom can reli understand me ... no1 whom i can relate to .... aiyah... i am toking kok... all dis while is i got no ppl to tok to... so WTF am i complaining abt?

not many ppl knw wad is running thru my mind.. i think i shud say is NO1 knws wad i am thinking ALL de time.. maybe i am juz one weird gal. i am begining to feel weary of my surroundings... and at times i reli feel lost ...

i knw tt living in my own world is not healthy at all.. but the thing is at most times when i decide to be open, ppl oways feel tt i am daydreaming and gif me their opinions in which i think is too "normal"...

i oso dunno wad i am toking abt now... juz knw tt i am very bored and lost at dis point of my life... every single step i make has to be super precise... if not i think i will end up having to throw myself out of de fking window to end it once n for all...... eeekkkssss ....

no drinking... no clubbing.... no gaming.... its so unlike me at all and i reli dun like it at all in any sense.... i am so down right bored and screaming out to break free....

can anyone feel me??????????????

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Surrealistic Shynna