Hmm... so long never blog redi.. cos my hse is under upgrading works and i am residing at my ah ma hse and i dun hv access to de lappy. hmmm~~ dis week when i am away from my home, i realise many things and make up my mind over things i've long ago planned.
Previosly i've talked abt an ultimate plan in which my mum had given me de green light. So now, i guess is to reveal my ultimate plan. Its been a week that i came to my senses and make up my mind to move on with life. i no longer wana live in a slump, no longer wana live my life with someone who has no balance in life, no communication and obviously, living in different worlds.
Now, i have alot of new tuition assignments. Am trying to earn back wat i lost in de past few years. i wana earn back my dignity, my life and also most importantly my happiness. so ya, i am going to get a divorce. and dis time i dun wana turn back anymore. i walked so far in life and come to dis point.. he asked me if i and him are still frens after dis, ya i wud say, ya, we r and always we r still n oways will b... he is no other den tachi himself.
there are many reasons that reli force me to leave tachi... maybe afterall dis yrs, we r trying to b together for the sake of being together.. and to dis point i feel that we have reli reli dift apart and he feels the same way. now that he has a new job, new frens, its time i step dwn.. dis wk when i am away from him, i dun feel so stress and tense anymore. i juz wana work hard and earn money, save up and move on wit my life...
tachi ask if i will hate him? my ans is NO. and also at the same time i hope that in return he wont hate me. i juz wan de outcome to be the better for the both of us in de future. he can concentrate on his work and i can work hard for de sake of my daughter princesss.....
now all i can say is, all de best for de both of us. now is de exam period and i am rather busy with teaching my kids, so i will go and plan and workout everything when de exams are over. and i think if we both can come to terms and by dec, we can go on our seperate ways and move on for a better future...
no hard feelings... GAMBATTE.... our once so fav song....
