是种想想，这些日子有了他的纯在， 心里会觉得有些温暖。 可是，已在回头看看，


我所拥有的一切，也可能在一夜之间化为乌有。


有很多很多的事情，并非我所能控制， 尤其是感情的事。


我时常会问我自己，“为什么会爱上他？” 可但却重来没有一个可以解释的理由。 有时


候，非常想要放弃， 可是却舍不得离去。。。 我能够过着这样的日子多久呢？我也不知


道。 只知道，已经到了一个无法收回的地步。 难道这就是爱情的力量吗？


我无法想象，若是有一天，我将永远的无法和他见面， 那么，往后得我会是怎样？


我多么希望能够走着白天走的路， 可以大方的牵着她的手，不要再等他的电话。。。



请放我去飞。。。 好吗？



~=+Shynna feels like letting go+=~


Surrealistic Shynna





I was being thrown a qns 2 nites ago. He asked me y i named him the seraphim. Well, perhaps it was much being inspired by Serena Valentino's gothic comic - Gloom Cookie.

Its all about this girl, Lex, her cursed love life. Surrounding the mysterious circus and ring master and also not forgetting the creatures involve.

Lex and Damion were truly in love but their love was a cursed one. In the series, Lex dies or Damion dies... anyway ... Damion was married to Isebella, the so called evil queen. Never did anyone knw the twist that she was also having a cursed life as she was madly in love with a ware wolf. Damion and Isebella were always arranged by their fathers to get married. and as usual they did not love each other non the less...

And some how in every reincarnation, Damion and Lex were bound to meet up and fall in love but only having one of them to die a horrible death ....

gees .....

i wonder will i die a horrible death since the seraphim appeared now ????

knowing that there wont be a happy ending to this curse, yet i step foot in it ..... perhaps this is my life's little piece of gloom cookie ~

and perhaps this is how the name Seraphim came about ... he to be named thy Seraphim

~=+Shynna eaten yet another piece of gloom cookie+=+~


Surrealistic Shynna





Tee Hee Hee ~~ im back .. haven been blogging while cos am being tied down by a handful of things. Ever since the seraphim appeared in my life, i spent many sleepless nights by his side and having no time to loan a netbook for blogging... gee weezzz ....

work is also ever so tiring and busy... am multi-tasking all the darn time. nevertheless, I had a wonderful time over at Macau and Zhu Hai for like 4days... enjoyed the food, the scenery, the casinos (although i din hit a windfall ~ LOL), the shopping and ultimately, the 9 degrees temperature !! woo HOO ~




Surrealistic Shynna





I was being thrown a few questions last nite which left me a lil speechless at the beginning. But after much consideration, I think I am able to face things and handle things at a more rational stage at this point of my life.

Well, he asked me if it was fair for me to be that hidden lady in the midst. He asked me y am I doing this ..

To me, its not about why.. there is not logical explanation to my choice. Perhaps, just plain simple, I was not given much of a choice to begin with. Even though how much i tell myself that i cant fall for him. But somehow, things have had happened. And, somehow there are a few development to certain things that have been kept blanketed.

And its not about the choice i was given. There are certain things in which i cant control. When 2 people meet up, this is fate. when things develop, it is call destiny, when good things happen, it is call natural and when things happen for the worst, it is nothing but karma...

At this moment i am still in control. But for how long? I'm not sure. i can only say that i enjoy the simplicity now and noting the fact that i did not ask for such things to happen. No one can control the feelings of the heart. Every one has the right to feel... and i just think that there is nothing wrong to develop a little something for someone even though that someone may not feel like wise.

No one can have the best of both worlds. Nothing is ever fair. Can only say that we met at the wrong time at the wrong place. And eventually, 2 people meet for a cause, and be it a simple cause or a complicated one, 2 people have already met up and things are in the realms of rebus ..

it has started. This is only the beginning and it is yet to end. Blame no one at all. Live with it and no complains. This is the key to willingness....

and i think somehow most of you would have guessed it ....

A new creature has appeared ... and he is somehow ... a forbidden creature .....
~=+Shynna develope feelings+=~


Surrealistic Shynna