9/21/2008 08:17:00 pm | Sunday 21 September 2008
~=+ Long Time No Blog +=~
When someone is sway, everything goes wrong... lost my hp.. lost everyone's number... what's worst? its a prepaid... means now i got a new number... shit .... When a person i sway, all fuck happens... got revert back to see a doc at IMH... ARGH~~ i finally lost it all.... over so many things that had happened in my life... wonder when will peace ever appear... wonder when will all these ordeal ever will end...What can be more worst? Some physco bugger appeared in my life... aiya... another one of those who needs attention from me... its not that i dun wana gif.. i juz feel that i am not ready to gif... i need time... i need courage...All things had not been smooth.. all things had gone wrong... I dun need anymore idiots to bug me ... esp those who cant make up their minds... those who act as if they care.. those who wana gif but i juz feel that he is not ready to gif... maybe age gap... maybe personality... but i guess its de personality... scary physco idiot... attention seeking idiot... as if my life not messy enough....i dun need anymore nonsense... i dun need anymore problems.. so pls... back off n gif me peace... back off n let me settle things my own way... u r definately not the one that can ever show me the care and the concern that i wan... u r not the one...my heart is dead... this void.. this darkness... it will never go away... someone came n stole my heart... n he had oredi torn my heart into bits... no one can ever fill up this void.. this ambysimal hole.... nobody can ever fill this emptiness...so if u think u wana try fill it up, please... dun try... cos it will never happen... i feel that you need someone whom can gif u de attention.. juz too bad that i cant gif it to u as i need it more den anyone... i am rendered helpless myself... when dis creature came into my life at the wrong time .... stole my heart ... reap it up... no more... no more creature can ever gif me de sense of security anymore.. no one... no more...shynna is dead.... dead to the world.... shynna is helpless.... numb nut.... shit ass.... gone.... no more strong gal...juz a torn apart dolly in the labyrinth of no return...~+= Shynna is dead to the WORLD =+~
Surrealistic Shynna
