I wonder why I gave this title to this post .... but never mind, i just named it anyway.
When Harry met Lala, they had the purest of pure frenship. Its a sweet, devoted, memorable moments of their lives. Tentatively, they grew up together. They enjoyed each other's company and cant live without each other.
Time flew and they both grew up. Gradually they got busy with their own things and drifted apart. Few yrs later, they heard from each other's frens that both of them had found their life partners. Although miles apart, Harry n Lala wished each other well and moved on with their live.
After a time frame again .. Lala broke off with her life partner and also learn that Harry too broke off with his life partner. Then they started texting each other and meeting up as and when again. Though they were not as close as before, Lala knew that some feelings never change after the lapse of so many yrs. But Lala remained in a state of confusion as Harry told her that he is contented with the frenship that they always have.
One day, Harry invited Lala to a party with all his friends. And somehow ... Lala found out that Harry actually had someone in mind ... At that moment, Lala did not really think of anything. But after the party ended, Lala went home to have a deep thought over things. And OUT OF THE BLUE, Lala felt her heart feeling sour and her vision blurred out... soon... tears started to flow down her cheek.
Lala asked herself, why is she crying ? Does she reli liked Harry so much that she cried, after knwing that Harry has a heart for someone else?
~=+SHYNNA NEEDS SOME ANSWERS+=~
Surrealistic Shynna
2/13/2009 02:02:00 am | Friday 13 February 2009
~=+ Long Time No Blog +=~
Its been a long time since i last blogged... sians...
2009 shud be a better yr i thought ... but everything is still de same ... slog slog slog like there is no tmr but still as broke as ever ...
think think think n the world still has to go round. i lost a few bastards in my life. n now my life is nothing but wrk n go home.
decided to quit partying for now .. reli feel so fucked up at times when u finally realise tt those ppl whom i tend to cherish r those who im trying to avoid nw...
lucky still got kit n chan wit me to kip my life worth while .. haha ^^ n neverthe less .... 8 letters 3words 1 meaning is still lingering in my head. although its already going to be a yr ... march 5th will mark the day when i almost fell into the pool last yr .. ahaha ~~ long story ..
since he has already removed his blogger n does not wan me to be in his life any longer ... i tot that i have moved on but ... i dunno ... dis strugle . maybe the fact that i never did love b4 n when i finally found something too gd to be true, i jumped str8 in witout even thinking wat is waiting for me on the other side.
life is never fair. never was, never is. never will be. try to win my heart now .. but i can tell u, wat r the chances? its so slim till its like totally no chance at all ... xians to de core ... cant help but have dis feeling.
though now is attach .. but got bf n no bf makes no diff, no spark no surprises.. i dun even feel my heart beat at all.. 2009 a new yr a new begining ... this is wat he told me when he hugged me so tight ... lets start all over again ... i looked back into his eyes ... n i was only happy for that moment ... cos watever that lies ahead has no meaning to it.
i will never remarry again .. n never have a chance to have anymore kids in my life despite the face that i love to have 3 kids... now i only have nicole, n if i continue to be wit him, there will be no chances of having anymore .... cos .... its anther tale to tell ...
i feel so fucked up that i have to pen this fucking long entry ... cos i knw the future for me is like last time .. no change .. juz slog. back to the slumps... back to the days i spend endless nites on the net gaming n toking to strangers ... back to the days where i work n be broke ... back to be all alone ...
no love ... cant feel it ... simply cant feel not even a pinch of it at al...
can someone advise me ?
no ... i dun think so ... or sad to say ... i dun need anyone at all ...
