Life's little irony was when I 1st saw the pregnancy test kit back in August 2012. Being a person with a weak health, I didn't know that I could every see the positive results on a pregnancy test kit. During that time, I was going thru a very rough patch in my life. Your daddy wasn't working cos we were just on our road to recovery from a motor accident. I just changed job to a new company and I didn't even know if I could keep the job for long as its a sales job n it was very demanding. Life was really tough and it was a hard decision to whether or not to keep this precious life I just conceived.

There were a lot of commotion going on. As daddy and I almost broke up due to the fights over fundamental issues. Nevertheless, daddy brought me to a doctor in Malaysia where I took a 1st glimpse at you. A lot went thru my mind, I was super emotional. I kept wondering if I would be the best mother to you. I was a failure in life, always have been drinking my life away. I cant even provide for myself, set alone how am I suppose to be there for you if I were to keep you? Yet again, I prayed and after much pondering, your daddy n I have decided to keep you.

We packed our bags and left Singapore to daddy's home in Malaysia as mummy could no longer keep my job and we can no longer afford a place to stay in Singapore. Life in Malaysia was tough. Perhaps due to the conservative society and the fact that daddy and I were not married yet. Words of scornfulness were ringing each day. And every moment was hurtful. Many thoughts keep running in my mind and I keep asking myself whether I made a right choice to move in with daddy in Malaysia? As the day gone by, you grew older, I can feel you moving inside me and that was what kept telling me to be strong. Since I have decide to keep you, I can only pray to God that all these awful people would stop calling you names and making my life difficult to go on.

All these while with you in me, I pulled up all the courage that I could ever gather. I tell myself that for your sake I must be as strong as I can ever be. Even though daddy's mummy even asked me to kill you before you can come to Earth, the more I tell myself that I have to protect you at all cost. As your movements in me got stronger, sometimes I find it hard to even sleep at night. But I know that all is going to be worthwhile. Because, daddy loves me with all his heart and of cause he will love you with his life and protect too.

And on 04th April 2013 at 6am in the morning, my water burst, and I know I am going to see  you for the 1st time. Daddy and I decided to come back to Singapore to deliver to you because back in Malaysia, there are just too many people out to hurt you with scornful and sour words. Its hard to explain why, just in simple words, one man's poison is another man's antidote. Your daddy may have been a good person to those in Malaysia, but to u and me, your daddy is the greatest daddy anyone could have wished for. The moment your daddy and I heard your cries, we cried too. Because we just love you so much and happy to see you.

After you were being cleaned up, I held you for the 1st time, and that moment on I know that no matter what happens, I am going to love you, protect you, be there for you and give you my very best.

And daddy help you tightly too. He too will love you with n protect you with his life. This path to have you is the best choice that daddy and I ever made.

You are just daddy's pride. And never fail to make his day. And I know for sure that because of you, daddy has learn to become a better person he ever was. And me too that I am glad I am no longer the party drunkard I used to be.

Day by day as you grew, you looks changes.

And day by day as you grow, my love for you grew too.

We have made our vows to care for you and make this family complete .

And as u progress further, you never fail to entertain us with your cuteness.

Soon, u learn to flip over and begin to be that mischievous little baby.

 

Daddy and I finally got married on 21st September 2013. and of cos we brought you to the occasion. you are considered our little witness of love. Honestly, without you, perhaps daddy and I will never learn how to love you n how to love each other more everyday.

And yes, there you are. Everyday never failing to smile and fill our lives with so much joy.

You are such a happy baby you know. Always showing us your cute n happy face.

Daddy and I can cannot imagine our days without you. and we cherish every moment we can have together as a happy n loving family. Though life itself still hover problems for daddy n I to face n yet to solve. Still, I believe with hard work and perseverance, God will lead us away from unhappiness. At least, for now, we are together as one family, home in Singapore and away from all those people with evil mouths.

So, keep on smiling for us Ian boy. God bless this baby boy of mine to grow up healthy, strong and happy each day. I am thankful that I was put through so much hardship during my pregnancy. Cos it was only thru such physical and mental "training" that I became a determine n head strong mother for you. And I will remain strong n protect you with my life. I love you Ian. and daddy loves u too.