11/29/2008 01:46:00 am | Saturday, 29 November 2008
~=+Tribute to a True Maple Friend - Chong Wai Kit aka OptimusKit - +=~
Its the wee hours of the nite and here i am blogging again. As usual i juz finished a chat on msn wit kit... aka optimuskit - fire poision mage of the moments guild in casseopia...
Having knwn him for like close to 2yrs and dis 2yrs with him in de game was sweet .. days of training to lvl up... days of hunting maple items... days when he comfort n console me nite after nite when that bastard charles dump me...
and now, i realise that his grandma had juz passed away... gees... i can oni offer him words of comfort n encouragement... he helped me alot for dis past wk.. he even offered me a loan when he is so far away in m'sia... he is such a sweet fren ... someone whom i reli cherish and someone whom is oways by my side... not literally but in terms of the heart...
now that he is also going thru a hard time, i din even offer him pak kum ... i feel so guilty n bad... kit oways got a big heart and oways put others b4 him . he has no refusal to ppl's request.. big or small, so long its within his means, he's oways there to lend a listening ear, a crying shoulder, a helping hand. ( are the rest of the moment members going to kill me if they read that i praise wai kit till so gd??? f3)
now that he is slowly recovering frm the heartache of his late grandma, we meet rather oftenly on msn... chatting.. toking nonsense and even planning to meet up in person... is either he come to sg to meet me or we meet in jb ... and spend the wkend tgt.
thru many episodes in our lives, i hv truely learn the meaning behind a thru frenship.
frens are ppl who - 1) be there when each other are in need and dun run away.
2) in terms of distance, we r still closely connected thanks to the technology of internet and also sms..
3) dun mock at each others' problems and try to solve things and even try to see things in each other's point of view.
4) talk nicely to each other n not snap at each other all the time.
5) dun blame each other rather smooth things out tgt in terms of discussion and not forcing each party to accept one opinion.
kit, u have taught me all these things.. though many ppl may not see things eye to eye, nevertheless, u may not agree wit me all de time n vice versa, we enjoy each others company on msn n sms so much...
is this the start of a relationship??? dunno ... guess not... oni time wil tell..
lastly i wana add, waikit, u r de best... thanks asiasoft for creating maple so that i can knw waikit...
most importantly, wai kit ... - U DUN OWAYS SO HUM SAP LA>>> lolss....
~=+SHYNNA TRIBUTES HANDSOME KING CHONG WAIKIT+=~
with love...
shynna
******* p/s: this blog post was requested by chong wai kit.. is he ask me to write abt him de.. but watever i wrote here is frm the bottom of my heart.... hee^^ *muackz*
11/20/2008 03:08:00 am | Thursday, 20 November 2008
~=+ The Evil Shynna +=~
I've been doing this for sometime now... i am desperate... i cant lose it again ...
sometimes having resort to evil is the best way out... i await the outcome of my evilness... hahahaha... *evil laughter*
ehems***
when the rite time arrives, i will see the results to my pure evil... shynna is tired of being sweet...
i think i shall let all hell run lose this time... no more looking back
~=+Shynna unleashes HELL!! +=~
11/16/2008 10:25:00 pm | Sunday, 16 November 2008
~=+ The Ever Searching Shynna +=~
Time flies.... its yet another 2008 going to past soon....
and still i stand here, ever searching... i dunno what i'm looking for... rather aimless.. work for de sake of living my days... having to fulfill my drinking pleasure.. when will it ever end? when will that deep void be filled up?
sometimes, i reli feel that i am juz so hollow and empty... i trust the wrong ppl.. and ppl took my trust for granted...
i dun wana grow up... but, its juz part of life... will he ever forgive me n let me die together with him like what we had once planned??
no one knws.... i juz wana turn back time.. hoping that none of all this rubbish had ever happen.. wishing that i had never made de wrong choice again....
tell me what am i suppose to do to make him ever trust me again.... its all so hard.. i am still looking for the right answers ,, but who or what can give them to me?
i wana release myself from all these misery.. but what muz i do to move on? how am i suppose to forget all the things that i have done when everything is my freaking fault? i juz wan him to forgive me... i wan him to knw how sorry i felt for all these episodes... and i wan him to knw that i am always here... always here to protect him...
everyday is a living hell to me.... its empty and worthless.... only the day when he can put everything behind and hold me in his arms again... will only be the day i can wake up and never be a living dead anymore.....
i wana feel my heart beat.... i wana feel it again... he is so near to me and yet so far,, de barrier... de distance.... its all my fault..... how can i ever make him understand how stupid i feel inside of me?
what am i suppose to do? i am ever searching......
no one can ever heal me.... no one can ever reach into my darkness ever again...
my days are numbered,,, there are limitations coming my way.... i feel tired... i wana gif up and i guess.... the time is soon...... 
~=+Shynna is ever searching+=~
11/13/2008 12:52:00 am | Thursday, 13 November 2008
~=+ Some People Who Claim That They Care +=~
Sometimes it reli sucks when u knw that u care for someone whom u think that they are frens but they dun even bother to reply smses or even call....
They claim to be busy. Claim that i belong to their Kampong... But c'mon...
after today, i finally see how clearly these ppl whom so call claim that they care are ppl who only care for those who belong to the same class as them...
Now i realise why Hui choose to be dis way.. some ppl say that Hui is selfish... but hey hey.... who started it 1st?
i still remember that i was in a cab, i over heard that the 3 bitches actually went out together... treated each other meals.... den i realise how dumb i am today... n how dumb i was thinking and treating them as my so called best frens...
well well... she used to teach m daughter tuition.... den upon agreeing to certain terms, she went missing.... den a few days later, she told me she went away on a trip on a last min basis.... pls la!!! wan go overseas can last min?
den frm tt time onwards, she no longer reply to my sms anymore... set alone, not answering my calls....
for my bday 2yrs ago, she gave me a precious moments frenship card and wrote a touching msg behind de card.... so i guess she muz be reli that darn damn fucking busy till she dunno how to reply sms...
but today... i see clearly... those who so call my kampong kakis... they dun exist!! not even one. even the one whom i knw for 10yrs... she sucks too. now i realise the agony that Hui has that cause her to do certain things which make ppl pissed...
i was in office... den i realise, 12th nov.... its her bday.... i smsed her to wish her...
AH HA!!! this was it!!!! now its already pass midnite....
tell me abt it.... quiet since noon... blah.... some kinda fren.,, wonder what kinda excuse she has dis time?
cant stand all dis office bitches.... when u dun meet their standards, u r out!!
O U T ~~~~~ out~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am not going to contact any of those so call kampong KAKIS or watever they claim they may be....
YOU ALL FUCKING SUCK!!!!
~=+SHYNNA IS A HERMIT +=~
