Many a times i asked myself, what have i gain during all these years? Hmm~ upon comtemplation, i would say, i have learnt.

Learnt to be understanding towards a few situations.

Learnt to not be typical over certain issues.

Nevertheless, Learnt to let go.

Things will never be the same again for me in the future days to come.

I am rather confused over many things as i find myself living too long in my own world. I try opening up. and am still trying to open up. try looking at things on de bright side. but..

well.... as de saying goes, the grass is oways greener on de other side.. but how true can dis saying be?

i cant slp again... maybe drifting in another phase of not eating.. i dunno...

i dunno wats wrong with me again.. each time i have to let emotions drown me so much.

Reminising in my own thoughts ... drifting here and there and end up no where...

i feel so out... out of dis world, not in tune with anything...

everyone around me have all moved on. going ahead to a better life....

den someone told me that dis living world is nothing but an illusion - We Create What We Want To Happen.

I have lived a life of nothingness and still at nothingness although i have been trying so hard..

a best fren of 13yrs drove me nuts.. and i cant believe that i cried over her few words.. wat is fucking wrong with me???

i oways thought that i dun care what others thinks of me. i am who i am, i live happy, eat happy, do things that make me happy and die happy...

but now.... i hav let a few words bring me down... what have i achieve so far? - NOTHING