10/24/2009 01:21:00 am | Saturday 24 October 2009
~=+A Little Recent Update+=~
I have left this bloggy dead for so long. There are times i reli wana juz destory this page for gd. But think of the efford of me doing this up and all those memories, being good or bad, most of which are written here ..
I once told 2 ppl before - memories, lets treat sweet memories as a moment to remember and bad memories as lesson learnt.
Perhaps is like what my aunt said about me, "I have learn thru my broken marriage and am working toward being a better person"
I always tell myself that I am picking myself up from a bad fall. But rarely, i'm just lying to myself. Drink, get drunk, cry, be a drama mama queen. These days are long gone. ~OVER~ The euphoria .. the dreams are just about to begin. I finally learn the essence of being cool and calm.
And i should add that, I have finally pick myself up and am heading somewhere. Those friends who understand me, stood by me. They don't pressure me as they know my plight. I am taking one foot at a time and things have been not the same anymore.
I need more time still. At the very moment, things are slowly taking its form. And i can fore see great things are going to happen if i continue what i am doing now. - work, go hom, work, go home cycle.. - on going for like 2 months in fact. and i am close to my family now.
Still, I have to say, give me more time. I will make a difference this time. Forgive me if I have taken so long to strive. Now, I see the light at the end of the tunnel. And I dug the exit with my own bare hands. Now its only a glimpse but the glimpse of hope will develop into a BIG BIG escape for me..
~=+Shynna still need time+=~
