i decided to update the blog post... or should i say, reply to the blog post. --- ----- -------
As the story goes, ben ben wanted to make a name for himself in this land and whether a lil doll has a heart to break her chains?
Well, a lil doll decided to break her chains and go see the world under the encouragement of ben ben. And also the with the promise of ben ben's love, a lil doll bravely cut of the chains on her legs. she dun wana carry on an r/s that they wana be together but cant. and she feels that he reli loves ben ben alot and wana spend the rest of her life wit him.
the process of breaking the chains n locks was slow as there were many procedures to go thru. each combination and key has to be turn the correct way. then came to a final situation where a lil doll feels tt she dun wana go thru all these steps, she heartlessly HACK OF THE CHAINS WITH A CHAINSAW!!!! packed her things and left her jail.
As ben ben reach out to her to help her up, a lil doll took her 1st step to see a new world that she has nvr seen b4. each step that she took was very new to her as she has been chained for 8yrs and everything that surrounds her are all new n some what strange.
Like a new born child, she tries to accept dis hypocryptical world. taking each new breath n each new step, adapting.... changing... renewing... and she's oways happy each time she makes progress and each time when she thinks of ben ben.
Ben ben showered a lil doll with love n concern. Sweetly standing by her and guide a lil doll to except and learn new things. Gradually, a lil doll picks up new stuff and try to adapt ben ben's way of life. Although sometimes, a lil doll stumbles as she learn to walk, she picks herself up for she feels that she reli loves ben ben alot.
a lil doll threw away her old ragedy clothes and buy new ones. step by step she came to learnt about speech, music and fashion. little by little a lil doll felt that ben ben is her everything and for the sake of love, she change bit by bit of herself to accomodate to ben ben's philosophy.
as de days pass, ben ben tries hard to make his name in dis land. and soon he got very busy and spent lesser time wit a lil doll.
a lil doll misses him very much each day. but being understanding over ben ben's job, she remained quiet and let ben ben fight his way up the ladder.
then came a day where a lil doll cant take it n misses ben ben to the max ... thru de pigeon messenger a lil doll decides to have a lil tok wit ben ben.
it was when ben ben told her that he was not evading her and de fact that he is juz very bz wit work n such.
a lil doll was not reli convience so she pressed a lil further and ask if ben ben would like to tok things out nicely. there ben ben told her that he is xianz wit her over certain issues... they discussed and some how, a lil doll might have hurt ben ben's feelings and ben ben might have hurt hers too.
den came to a point where ben ben ask her if she had chop of the chains cos of him .... the ans is YES. if not cos of his encouragement, if not cos a lil doll love him so dearly, a lil doll wud still remain in her shackles and be chained for the rest of her life.
den ben ben asked if he were to leave her, will a lil doll fall n stumble... the answer is YES. a lil doll would drown in the open sea.
ben ben oso said that a lil doll should communicate more wit ppl, crowds and also his mum n family members.. a lil doll has her reasons y she did not wana tok to his mum.. a lil doll is trying to face crowds.
so is ben ben going to give a lil doll a chance?
a lil doll has juz learnt to walk. learnt to talk. there are many things she is still green.... n ben ben had juz given her a feeling that he MIGHT leave her. a lil doll is broken hearted at that MOMENT...
a lil doll turned back to look at her broken shackles and chains. she den ask herself, if ben ben had not come along, she might hv juz live her life as it is. knwing that each time when she needs a breather, she unlock her chains to go out but end of the day, she will lock it back when she feels like it. cos she feels that it was the only place where she wont get hurt by others but only suffer in silence.
but now that the locks have been BROKEN, there is no way she can put de shackles back, and being so new to face this world alone... she wonders if she can reli do it alone... or built a new wall to surround herself so that no one can enter and reach out to her.
So how is dis r/s going to? where is de destination?
a lil doll is all cut up and de cotton that is filled within her is spilled every where...
why is my love always like the hanabi? (fireworks in jap)
