2/22/2008 05:22:00 pm | Friday 22 February 2008
Am I weird or They are Weird?
See how time flies and now its oredi 2008. All these years, there are many things that had happened. some are happy, some sad, some frustrating, nevertheless, there are some in which you cant do no nothing about it at all.
Hmm... sometimes i juz wonder, in this world, does ppl really forgive and forget? or they juz pretend that all is over n they never wana talk abt it anymore. i often ask myself, those who always say they care, do they reli care or they juz say it for the sake of making me feel better. Am i ok in the head? MY GOD... shynna's losing it again.
its stressful to juggle wit so many things in the headstart. work, family, people, frens.... the environment... the ever changing surrounding.. i look around me and see it as a place like of a DNA structure... like some chromosones... ever changing n evolving. ppl change to cut fit into an environment, some change environment to cut fit to their lifestyles. for me, i choose to be a hermit and live my life as it is.
A best fren once said that all of us has grown up. we are all busy with our social lifes, work, new duties that are set upon us in different phases of growing up. yeah and i totally agree. and at most times we hav different opinions to things and dun reli see much eye to eye. i have developed a self healing nature as in ... i dun tend to blame ppl anymore... take things as it is. and the best way to stay out of trouble is to stay out of sight.. the festive season of the traditional Chinese New Year is round the corner. i can see that many of my frens and even those walking down the streets are busy preparing for this occassion. as for me, i've decided to stay out of trouble. i've planned a trip to genting where i will b spending 2nites 3 days there. i am running away from those whom had me exiled... looking back i do feel remourse and sad, but there is nothing much i can do. they think that i am weird but i see to them as they are wierd. so its like 2 rams trying to cross a narrow mountain trek, one has to go. so i decide that i am the one that should juz go. going to genting will let me hide and relax my mind for awhile. go to the theme parks an enjoy all de rides and catch back wad i missed out in childhood.as for my frens.... well wad else can i say when it seems so hard to contact those that i care? now that i've moved to stay so far away from them. its not that i wana but i dun have a choice. given this circumstance, some ppl think that i have a chance of going back... well, they shud try living in that place thay raised me in... its... its not a place i would call home but rather juz a symetrical apartment of a corrective institude....
speaking of which, "Love For Rent" have been put to sleep for sometime, and i think its time i begin to work on it again. (hope that one day i can get it published. ^^) all of them seemed to be having a great time socializing. and i dun think i should interfere anywhere from here. i should juz b my hermit. saving my income to my monthly JB trip. drink, drank, drunk. at least i find more pleasure in doind so... i dun need too many ppl in my life, juz 1 or 2 will do. i guess for a moment dis will b fine. and at least every JB trip is oways with joy n something new to learn and even a place new to explore. i tot of planning a CNY steamboat.... but now i dun think its neccessary. steamboat still going on but i guess its juz wit my "family". no need to make it a hassle and make myself feel more.... how to say, .... hmmmm feel weird.. or even they feel that i am weird anymore... let it b... let it b....
All my dear frens.... say la vi to.....HERMIT~~
Surrealistic Shynna
