~=+My Life Stories+=~

~=+Paradoxical Paradoxide+=~

2011-06-20T23:02:00.002+08:00

Things have not been and should not have been what they seemed to bE. BUT never the less; it happened anyway. ThingS seemed to b NEITHER SURRELISATIC, GOTHLIATHICAL NOT REALISTICAL, YET STILL; IT HAPPENED ANYWAY ..... HAVING TOO MUCH GIDDY SPELLS HAVE CAUSED ME NVR TO PEN ANYTHING TOO PROFOUND... YET I CANT B IDOTICAL ENUOGH TO PEN THINGS TOO SHALLOW... YET; ..... IT HAPPEBED ANYWAY ... IT HAS GOT ME GOING, ON THE OTHER HAND GOT ME COMING.... STILL; IT HAPPENED ANYWAY ........ THE WRITINGS OF A GOTH IS COMING BACK... N SO ... THING SHUD HAVE BEEN THE WAY THEY USED TO BE.... THUS; I HOPE SO .... HENCE IT WILL HAPPEN ... ANYWAY ~ ...

~=+ Live Cell Therapy +=~

2011-05-14T20:31:00.005+08:00

Live cell therapy is actually the use of living tissue to rebuild and revitalize ailing or ageing tissue. Such therapy has a long term effect because it stimulates the body's own healing and revitalizing powers.

Yes, our body system is very complex. We can heal and revitalize on our own. But of cos, this process can be hestant with the help of Live cell therapy.

Live cell therapy acts like an organ transplant and it can actually make old cells regenerate. Hence, new healthy cells will form.
Several millions of people around the world have gone thru such therapy and injections since in the mid 1950s.

However, this method of therapy was discovered way back in 1931 by a Swiss physician, Dr. Paul Niehans.

Recently, live cell therapy has become very popular as it has proven that it can actually slow down aging and also prolong life. This process not only reduce damage cells in our body but also be able to replenish and rejuvenate our cells.

Live cell therapy not only helps one look good but also feel good as the body system is totally renew.

Like I have mentioned in my previous entry on ageing, live cell therapy is a successful cure and 101% answer to all our ageging woes.

I myself, have personally experience it myself. Well, live cell therapy used to be an extravagant investment for one to look young n maintain their health. But, due to the advancement of medical science, it is now easily available at our finger tips in capsules form. Such capsules are placenta abstract from sheep.

Wana know more on how it has help me? Follow on the next few entries ! ^^

~=+ Ageing +=~

2011-05-04T15:53:00.006+08:00

Decided to pen on this article as i feel that i am AGEING !!! ... YESH!!!!!!!!!!! ...........

What is ageing?

Ageing can be physical and at the same time, psychological.

1) physical ageing

Such ageing signs can be seen on the outlooks of a person. This person may have fine lines showing on their skin surface.

This is due to the coenzymes that is depreciating and the skin is losing its elascity. Collagen is also losing its toll due to TIME !!!

Also, his/her reactions may slow down, memory lost, body n joint aches and perhaps WHITE HAIR begin growing !!!

2) Psychological ageing.

Such ageing can cause a person to feel tired, having emotional stress in which they cant handle, hormones imbalance. Certain cases in women may lead to irregular menses. Generally, a person will feel agitated for no apparent reason and they may even at times feel depress.

When Does Ageing Start?

Well, ageing can start as early as the age of between 20 - 25yrs old. There are a few factors that causes ageing and premature ageing in a human body.

The factors can be due to the intake of food, our lifestyle, eg. the amount of sleep we have, the amount of water intake and also not forgetting work stress, peer pressure and ultimately some of the products that we use on our skin.

These products can be as normal as a facial wash we use everyday. The PH level may not suit our skin, also heavy cosmetics usage like foundation and concealor.

As for psychological ageing, its a little difficult to handle. Because, certain cases, some people may face sudden mood changes. This is due to the hormones changes that are taking place. Heat rush, as in a sudden rise in body temperature, this, is also due to hormonal changes.

One may feel fatique, not being to be as agile and also one may feel that they are not able to handle changes in the environment. Some may even affect their social activities like freinds gathering, party sessions or late night movies.

But!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All these can be taken control of.

Successful dimensions of ageing includes the following :

1.No physical disability over the age of 75 as rated by a physician;
2.Good subjective health assessment (i.e. good self-ratings of one's health);
3.Good mental health;
4.Objective social support;
5.Self-rated life satisfaction in eight domains, namely marriage, income-related work, children, friendship and social contacts, hobbies, community service activities, religion and recreation/sports.

Sounds difficult?

Neh ... its actually rather simple.. I HAVE THE SOLUTION.. HEHE ^^

Wana know more?? Keep reading upcoming posts !!

~=+Crazy Drinking AGAIN!!+=~

2011-05-01T16:05:00.009+08:00

OOhh lala ..~ back to crazy drinking days again. On going for like 3 days straight. Gosh~ if i continue i think i will break down again. +sigh+ sometimes i reli dunno what im thinking. Keep telling myself i wana forget the chevalier but somehow he remains stuck at the back of my mind n deep within my heart.

Overall, Ive been rather calm. No more ki siao drunkard. LOL ... n ya ... i begin cam whore-ing again ... MUAHAHHAHA

All the pattern patter n acting cute. All for the fun of it. Finally back into non-isolation mood. LOL

And also, i lost the other HP.. lol ... which i think its a sign that my kumanthongs want me to lead back a normal n healthy lifestyle once n for gd. Since im so hard up about have "another life" then they help me throw away "the other me".

Ya .. Overall i think things are better off this way. Going out with friends, leading a normal n down to earth life once more. GD GD NA ~

Lucky thing is my mainline is still with me cos i was busy cam whore-ing with it. LOL . the full album can be viewed in my facebook. Ultimately, drinking is not very healthy but then again, im just socialising. Once im more settled, i think i will be back on track to fight for my achievements all over again.

Life is just a journey, a test....

Come what may .. go what must. Live it up to it. as i always like to emphasize

Car'pe D'iem -及时行乐

~=+ Kumanthong +=~

2011-04-26T03:19:00.005+08:00

Kumanthong - Child Diety From Thailand.

The photos below are taken from my friend's house. He is moving out and wants good parents for these children.

Interested in adoption? Please email to kayumi_80@hotmail.com for more enquiries.

~=+Kumantong - Child Diety+=~

2011-04-25T13:30:00.003+08:00

~=+A Full Week of Socializing+=~

2011-04-24T16:03:00.005+08:00

Making a come back to face reality needs alot of courage. As facing reality is sometimes rather painful. But yet again as the saying goes, No Pain No Gain.

Being isolated for the past few months have taught me a handful of things again. I have met into so many many many ppl from different walks of life and I came to realise the actual meaning of the word - SELFISH.

Ppl come, ppl go .. who are those whom really care, you will find out at the end day.

For this whole week, I was busy meeting up with friends and catching up with them. I realised how isolated and cramp i was in my small small world of The Unidentified. Having to face day by day with the mindset of earning money. Not knowing when your next income will be.. Not knowing who you will meet and how their personalities might turn out to be.

Apparently, i broke down once again. Drinking n tearing my nights away. Asking myself that what has my life become? Well, at the same time, I told myself that there is no time to waste. Have to pick myself up really quick. As the quick sand swarms itself around me n suffocating me, I have to grab the nearest vine and liberate myself.

And ... YES I DID!!! +WELCOME REALITY+

Seminar, dinner, debrief n bonding session last night was great.

Yeah, i went for agency seminar ytd. A lil surprise show face to all the other members that i am still alive n kicking.

See the +Thumbs Up+ photo... Symbolises that all things are in GOOD and RUNNING ORDER!!

YESH ~

I am back. And I am back not to just make life better but to take it to its maximun limits~! I am sick n tired of running away from my problems and not socializing. I am sick n tired of what i was doing. Now its time ... A beginning of a new chapter!

~=+Shynna Is Back With a More Positive Attitude+=~

~=+Im Back In Action+=~

2011-04-20T22:00:00.000+08:00

Oookkkk ....
seems like i have recieved an sms complain that i have not been blogging. LOL
well, netbook was down and it is only 399$today that i have finally bought my new toy. Spent $399 on an azuz netbook ... +pocket broken one hole+ T_T

Ok, after today, i will will more new updates and of cos more new photos to share. Hope you guys out there whom have been following my blog, do give me another chance to be an active blogger again and continue to support and read my stories of life.

Till then ... have a great night and sugary dreamy !!!

~=+Pain & Agony Relief in Just A Min!!+=~

2010-10-21T23:53:00.006+08:00

Now a days the weather condition is ...... +speechless+
I got no better words to further discribe the current environment and surrounding situation. Considering the bad air pollution, humidity level super high and ... walan eh ... including the amount of stress level ... I finally fallen sick for the past week.

Went to see a doc to get some pills for muscle n joint pain. Doc said im too stress. He prescribed me with a handful of pain killers, muscle relaxant, pills to bring down my temperature and also anti-bio ...

But the true fact is ... after consuming all the medication, the only effect i got was being drowsy and light headed.. The pain in my neck, shoulders n shoulder blades did not die ..

I was in deep agony that particular night (16th oct) .. The pain was too much !! I kept tossing and turning in de dense humidity of the night, sweating and drenched in sweat. Even though the fan was on, my body temperature was rising. I felt as though i was being burnt alive in a furnace.

The feeling was terrible... For 2 long hours i toss n turned like a piece of roti prata, suffering. Each time i moved an inch, the spasms of pain travelled thru my whole body and my tenons started to crack ... ya ... i was in so much tention that each inch of movement, i could hear my joints crack!! I felt as though I am an 80yrs old ah ma !!

Just as the chevalier knock off and came home, he noticed my agony.. He told me to use the spray on glucosamine in which i had bought initially for his use. He said that since his not longer in need of it, i can use it. He then opened the bottle and helped me sprayed a generous amount on my back ..

There was this strange sizzling sizzling crack crack crack.. it sounded like my mum frying omelettes for breakfast !! OMG !!

The sizzlig lasted for about one minute. I felt a releasing sensation and also a mentholated feeling on my shoulders n neck ... ITS SO SOOTHING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

in Just a single min, MY SUFFERING WAS GONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW ~~
Below is this amazing vid i made to share about my testimonial .. it is reli this amazing!! Pain relief spray on glucosamine, +poof+
my pain went away before i could even finish saying "PAIN PAIN GO AWAY!!"

Interesting and Amazing
Like I always say "Minimum investment for MAXIMUM HEALTH BENEFITS!

~=+SHYNNA IS RELIEF OF HER PAIN IN JUST 1MIN!!+=~

~=+Finally Found the Time to Update+=~

2010-10-15T20:11:00.006+08:00

I guess many of you out there smell a dead blog ... Well, after i left rapellez, things have changed a great deal for me ..

I took more stride in life and learnt the art or marketing and managing ppl. Most importantly, the Chevalier has taught me how to cherish life even more than i should. Learning how to control my temper and being a better person.

My journey took a down turn but then again, there is no time to lose. I picked myself up and decided to chiong even harder n fight even stronger for a better tmr.

Apart frm all that, I also learnt to be healthier and realise the disaster of having too much excess weight. I took full control and manage to shed off those extra pounds. I even went for a photo shoot with Garuto at Fort Canning last month. And I reli appreciate his effort and time spent with me.

Now, let you ppl see the differences and you all judge yourself.

Aah haa ~~ a total different person !!

Many of you might think that Garuto photoshop me so i look slimmer in those shots but NO LO...

Garuto is not so free. It took like a month b4 he was even actually free to upload those pics in Facebook for me, he only changed the colour saturation. Any -o-how ... now i have more confidence, I look nicer and most importantly I AM HEALTHIER !!!

I lower my risk of premature aging, heart n kidney disease caused by over consumption of alcohol and FATSSSSssss!!!!!!!

Wana find out my secrets to weight lost? Gimme me a HOLLER ! or email - kayumi_80@hotmail.com

Or you may visit me in my facebook with the same addy and add me as friend !! hee ^_^

Life is never the same as b4.. For me, its a beginning of yet another new and exciting chapter and a gateway to success more bundles of joy ... And last but not least, having the Chevalier to uphold my heart of righteousness!!

~=+Shynna is happy and contented+=~

~=+Self Reflection - Day 2,3 and 4+=~

2010-08-17T11:51:00.010+08:00

is day 2 of self reflection and I broke the ICE ... ~ YESH ~ ...

Sibei laoya ... dunno what I'm doing ... perhaps its too daunting. He is everywhere... in my mind, in my sleep... argh ~ Shyn is sibei lao ya !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well well well.... life's little ironies are the happenings that make you think. and somehow I got related to HELLO KITTY instead... LOLss ... dunno y but ya.. somehow I got linked to hello kitty when i think of everything. Like what Feron say, shyn has got a Catty face ...oways call me cat face shynna ...

Many ppl do not understand why hello kitty has no mouth. Hmm ~ me, being an avid fan, i knw. Yuko Yamaguchi is the 3rd designer of hello kitty and she still is till this very day. She created kitty with no mouth because, Kitty is out to suit every one.

Well, what do i mean? I mean, kitty can be any expression u want her to be just by simply adding a "mouth of ur own choice". Still dun get it? Ok .. here are a few i created on my own, take a look - - - -

Hehehe ~

As the saying goes "curiosity killed the cat"

Yeah ... have to agree at some point that i am always full of curiosity and that often got me into many deep shit and trouble. And also these shit that made me learn a lesson each time i stumble.

And another saying goes "don't let the cat out of the bag" - meaning don't tell others of a seceret you upkeep. Well, ya.. i hold many keys to alot of people's minds and it takes me to die along with it, not leaking a single word. Its all buried deep within my thoughts.

And yet another mythological believe - cat has 9 lives. And therefore, shynna wont die at this moment... it will take my curiosity to find out more and upkeep more secrets and also stumble more to learn more before i die ..

Buahaha ~ therefore I am shyn the cat who loves hello kitty so muchie muchie ~~

I can be anything you want me to be. Happy shyn, angry shyn. Just at one command, I can be good, sweet ... at the same time, bad and evil.

But that does not mean you can easily manupilate my thoughts. I am not a "hear say" person. It will take me time to observe, think, digest and reflect before I react...

However ... lao ya shyn is now randered in a helpless situation ... buahaha ...

Yeah yyeah yeah yeah yeah yeah ~~ I am rather confuse at this point that is why i am remain stagnent at where i am at this moment. Not slipping away, neither rising ... Just still ....

thinking and planning out my next step .... Life's little ironies .. Hmm !

can reli burn me down sometimes ... maybe like what i oways say ... Shynna is up for adoption!! i need an owner ... need guidence... argh ~ lao ya lao ya lao ya ~~

the ever determine me is now bury deep within my thoughts... I can be a prowless tigeress deep in the woods, ever hunting, ever searching just to feed my own pack .. but at times ... I am very tired ...

I wish to be in a zoo, even a circus ... need a zoo keeper or ring master just to tame me... sick n tired of making decisions all the time ... argh ~~ where is the person that can deserve my loyalness and let me be tame kitty ??? I am just someone who does not wana be do dominant.

~=+Shynna is confused and needs an owner to tame the cat+=~

~=+ Self Reflection - DAY 1 +=~

2010-08-13T19:38:00.004+08:00

Life .. - everyone came here for a reason. Be it gd or bad. Everyone came here to either suffer or enjoy.. but behind every enjoyment, there are bound to be hardships that everyone must face b4 they finally gain the knowledge to reach their goals and achieve their dreams.

When I was much younger, i dun understand y mum n dad are always fighting. I dun understand y mum was always nagging ... y she had to drink herself dead drunk, at times even vent her anger on me. Being the eldest in the family, all i knw is - she is my mum n no matter wad happens i have to be there for her.

Dad was a drunkard and still is till this very day. although i can see that he had mend his ways better. Gamble a lil lesser and try to mind his own biz frm this family. Still, he is my dad and i too, have to be there for him in times of need.

When i was much younger, i made mistakes which causes mum to chase me out of the hse and even change the house lock in an instant of only the next day. During those moments, i reli hated her and even qns her if i am her real daughter ... but, end of the day, i thank her for chasing me out and so called "ill-treating" me .. cos .. if she dun do so, today, i might still be that good for nothing ah lian i used to be ... the good for nothing junkie the will rot in this cruel and ugly world.

For 7yrs i fight for her forgiveness.. and her acceptance for me to come home. In order to be able to live in the comfort of this hse, there are changes and sacrifices to be made. I reli thank my mum for treating me this way .. if not i wont be who i am today and wont be where i am either.. so ... no matter what happens, i cant fall. she needs me ... my princess needs me too .....

I still rmb, there was once, mum n dad had a bad fight. And in between her tears, she told daddy that " as a woman, even if her virginal become rotten just cos she become a prostitute to uphold and upkeep the income of this household, she oso dun care. not even scared ppl laugh, cos she uses the money for the sake of bringing up her children n holding this hse tgt"

When i grew up, in between my tears n in a midst of a fury fight with my ex hubby, i told my ex-hubby the same thing. "I sell myself n not scared ppl laugh at me or look down on me. I do it cos i got a gd for nothing hubby n my daughter n this hse need the income."

Ironic.. mum's words may have been imprinted too deeply within my memory. So long i did not con or cheat or steal, i am earning an income, not for the sake of vanity or selfishness of myself .. i dun care n go all out.

Being the eldest in this family - i bear the whole responsibility on me. i dun wan mum to be sad again cos of fundamental issues... i just know that, whatever i do, wherever i go, i stand firm and i dun HURT PPL in any sense ...

This family needs me.

~=+ Shynna Kenot Fall +=~

~=+ Break up .. Break Down Part II +=~

2010-08-07T19:46:00.006+08:00

Ya la ya la ... I am so laoya I let it happen again la .... if you all have been following .. shud knw what happened after the frenzy of Charles
~=+Break up DEN BREAK DOWN+=~

I cant help but I have been crying for a week now .. since he told me that the apology that I wanted will only happen NEXT YEAR !!

He is the most useless man I've ever come across.. At least, Charles and I had a closure. At least he was able to clarify things with me with HONESTY AND INTEGRITY. Not like this laoya Leaf Man ... gimme lame excuses.. shitty stories in which none are true at all ...

I tot I was strong. Buidling this thick imaginary wall around me so that I wont fall in love easily and wont trust easily as well.. But ya la ... is I AM LAO YA ... maybe being single and working too hard in 2009 caused me to be lonely and needed a companion.

Well.. ya .. whole of 2009, I was emotionless even though I was having a few proposals .. Till he appeared in Jan of 2010 ... We didnt know that things will developed and become so complicated. Somehow .. I dun trust him in the beginning .. but eventually he managed to knock down that concrete wall of trust issue I built. Same case like Charles, just as when I wanted to make improvements and make changes for the better ... I AM BEING DUMPED..

At least Charles was apologetic and we managed to have an hour of closure ... before we finally parted our ways and he was never to be heard of again.

But I dun understand why the seraphim has to wait till next year before he can give me a proper closure .. This is so unfair.. I am being hanged and lingered upon the mistakes that I've made. Did I try too hard or am I just that useless and never good enough?

Daniel and I had a closure too ... Therefore, till now sometimes we still sms each other when we wanted a listening ear.

Night after night, I intoxicate myself till there is no tmr. Cry like I've never done before. And yet again I asked, where is the Shynna that I've always wanted to be? Do I wana let Eunice take over me again ?? Working hard, online writing, forming a band.. that is the Shynna for the whole of 2009 ... then what happen?? Why is Eunice making a come back after June 2010 ....

Just cos of a useless seraphim ? Just cos of someone who doesnt care, Eunice has to take over? NO WAY ... but ... yet again .. i cant control ... the hot tears .. the feelings, the thoughts and the emotions .. cos i am being left hanged.

I find it hard to breathe.. as every breathe I take brings spasms of pain thru my soul .. the betrayal that I did to myself .. I let myself down in every aspect. When he came in ... yet again I tried throwing the gothic culture ... the jamming sessions and even stop waitressing for some reason he told me he does not like the idea of me having to entertain Men during wkends even if its juz a waitress basis...

I let him took control of every aspect of me.. even the expectations of forming Lucid Dreams and going for bay beats, vocal practice and keyboard lessons all held aback ... or shud i say all given up just because of one command that came from him - The Great Seraphim

Argh ... y am i so hopeless??

Mum suggested I go back to see BHM Esther if i cant take it. but i dun wan ... i dun wana be treated like an animal when im there .... no no ...

PLEASE HELP ME ........

im in pain ... so much pain ... bleeding inside n out ... up n down ....

This is the 2nd episode ...

Well, if i am not being born to be loved or to love... i'd rather be feared than love ... Fear me. obey me .....

Im in so much pain till breathing hurts ... i can only sit n cry.. can only dowse myslef nuts with beer beer and more beer ... and doing the paradoxical ....

~=+Shynna is in so much pain+=~

~=+ 30 Days Money Back Guarantee!!! +=~

2010-07-24T11:02:00.008+08:00

Ahh, This blog title is kinda catchy, familiar and also common... Right?

haha~

Well, this is one of the many catch phrases which most slimming centres, spa and beauty salons like to use. "lose inches in weeks if not, money back guarantee" blah blah blah .

Or most oftenly you will hear on radio ads, even seen T.V ads, magazine ads stating, XXXX salon is not offering a treatment at a special rate of $XX which is usually below $100. And they will usually state "with immediate effects" so, be the 1st 30 callers and dial xxxxxxx now !!!

Gimmicks gimmicks gimmicks ....

Even if you are way past 100 callers u still get to have the treatment at that so called special rate. Y i knw? cos my day job is an admin or should say a BAO KA LIAO KOPI SOH in a local beauty spa. (wont mention which one la, dun wana be sued)

I already intend to move on with this job. Too many ad-hocs and I feel that my abilities are being understimated in this current company.

Now, we come back to the money back guarantee issue. Let's say Customer A, lets call her Mary. Mary dial the pormotional number and made an appointment to do a slimming treatment. And hey !! REally LEI .. I lost like 2 inches. not bad ah. Den, here steps in the consultant. She will then persuade Mary to sign up a 10 session course which will cost her $1000 or more. Upon that, she will also be persuaded to add in more money to buy products to either apply or to be taken orally, allergedly to so called hence the slimming process.

Apparently, most local beauty spa will be using the usual body wrap method and applying so called "fat burning essence" to tighten and firm the skin and at the same time burn off excess fats.

Subsequently if required, the customers will be told to lie inside slimming capsules or be wrap up with the hot blanket to remove so called water retention or what so ever that is causing them to be fat.

Ok.. Happily, Mary spent and spent. After the 10 sessions and purchasing of all those chemical products, Mary still remain at her weight and still stay at the so called 2 inch lost from the 1st treatment.

Furious, Mary asked for her so called 30 day money back guarantee. Then, here steps in the Marketing manager or the Customer service Manager. They will explain that, "well Mary, we only refund unless you did not lose weight. But apparently, YOU DID!! and you lost 2 INCHES!! so, according to our company policy, we cannot reund you. But we can compensate you with other products or free treatments if you want to."

WTF!!! 2 inches considered results. considered as weight lost? Biggest joke of my life man.

That is the main reason why many people, especially women now a days are skeptic about going to salons, afraid that they might be scam.

Like what I mentioned in Jennifer's testimonial --> Click here to recall -->

~=+Jennifer Hing's Acupuncture Slimming Testimonial=~

What Jennifer went thru was acupuncture slimming which enhances blood circulation and the oral products that she was prescribed with are all purely organic. No artificial flavours, colours nor chemicals.

And please be reminded that each indivitual has a different body structure, DNA, chromosomes.

Therefore, the treatment that Jennifer went to is specially custom made to suit her body needs. The consultant and dietician will prescribe her a remedy which best suits her body's absorbtion.

And even Trissy, a person who suffers from chronic illness is suitable to intake the exact same products as Jennifer did. This is because, the proffesional consultants will educate you with specific instructions to consume the products so that it will work effectively.

Click here to recall -->~=+Trissy Chan's Acupuncture Slimming Testimonial=~

These supplements, although they are the same. But, with specific instructions and correct way of consumtion, there is 100% results. All you have to do is just listen to the consultant and follow her instructions given accordingly.

And the actual fact is, the acupuncture slimming treatments COMES with the products with NO EXTRA charges at all. Your payment for the 3 months course is a ONE TIME and no extra top up UNLESS you want to buy more products to keep for future consumtion.

Think about it. Its worth it. And the consultants WILL NEVER ask u to top up cash for other products or ask u to sign another package once your package is done. NO HARD SELLING.

Cos we are not here to blood suck and dry out ppl's bank accounts or savings. WE are here to create an awareness of health. because, besides looking good, your body's structure and immune system will also be improved as well... its not the superficial side that we are promoting. Its the HEALTH which money cant buy ...

Interested in doing a full body analysis? Call 97410552 to talk to Jennifer personally or email me ur contact particulars to - kayumi_80@hotmail.com

~=+Shynna not only wana look good but wana be HEALTHY too~=+

~=+Feelings Of Being Unfair+=~

2010-07-16T13:42:00.008+08:00

I have not been feeling really great for these few weeks. Its been like close to 2 months ... and the feeling of unworthy-ness and unjustifiable explanations still lingers.

My life is just like a roller coaster ride. I mean, who's life isn't? Ultimately, these ups and downs are the parts and parcels of life where one will learn and eventually grow up to be a better person. Perhaps even build a goal, an aim in life that makes life worth living for.

I was ever at the peak before. Teaching tuition and co-ordinate various classes.. even started Trust Tuition Agency sole handedly .. Until, I became soft hearted and let someone join in my business venture and that person ran away with part of the funds ... +POOF+ Trust Tuition was gone in just one night.

Vincent then asked me to venture in Push carts, selling gifts like hair clips, pouches, hello kitty stuff. From 1, expanded till 3.. till I was accused by his dumb wife as his mistress ... I took back my investments and went back to education line. - Part time tutor.

I joined various companies doing retail sales, even Anna Sui as their Beauty Consultant and Road Show Consultant.. Learnt a whole great deal about buying and selling. Joined various companies dealing with administrative job scopes, basic HR, import and export paper work....

hmm~ somehow ... after so many years, I am still where I am. Earning a small some, just enough to survive.

These few weeks I have been doing alot of self reflection. Having alot of flash back memories of the past. Then I begin to ask myself, What is the definition to the word - Fair - ?

The first thing that came to my mind was my broken marriage. My whole 10years in the past with a monster whom abused me and had not been working for 7years. And now that he had found a job as an operations manager, we are divorced and no longer have any ties with each other ... isit fair ?

After Daniel and I went on separate ways, I got myself a job as a waitress in boat quay. And somehow met Charles. We were together for a while. There were times he pissed me off and vice versa, apparently, this is how all relationships are suppose to be.. We had a little quarrels and made up shortly after.

There were times he told me that he did not like my Gothic lifestyle, my Gothic interest in music and culture. He tried many times to change me in a "pinky" and "princessy" gal ...
Eventually, ya, I changed. Tried to accept having a normal life and even tried to mix with crowds.

However, I really did not know what was the mistake I made.. After putting in so much effort to be what he wanted me to be.. he wanted a break off as he felt that he wanted to reconcile with his ex-gf... WTF .. what an excuse ..

So .. Is this fair?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
After all the roller coaster rides of broken relationships, I was admitted into IMH .. Warded for weeks.

And finally, I decided to stand up so that I can be fair to myself, my daughter, my family and especially my mum. I have broke her heart so many times. Being a notorious teen, going into girls' home and drop out of studies when I got pregnant at the age of 18.

I begin to love them and cherish them more. These ppl whom care n love me sincerely..

I slog, working as an accounts admin in the day, writing for online e-mags and even worked at night as a part time waitress in a few pubs. All I wanted was just a peaceful life. A life where I can be able to provide for my daughter and mum..

Through out 2009 was nothing but work.. pointless drinking sessions on wkends juz to drown off all the sadness, being jovial just to hide all the unhappiness. Moving on with my life as time is forever moving forward and wait for no one.

I even made an oath not to fall in love again. Formed a band, go for jamming sessions, all I ever wanted is to be fair to myself. Do things that I enjoy doing, catching up what I have lost out when I chosen the destiny to get married and upon divorce. Be nice to everyone even though I've got a trust issue.

Then .... 2010 ....

A Seraphim flew into my life. He managed to gain my trust and broke down the wall I built to so called "protect" myself. Although I knw that he has to return to the divine one day, but still.... I fall for him. Seeing his sincerity and concern for me ..

Night after night for 6months, the Seraphim came to me, Surprised me with night outs, brought me to my very 1st prawning trip.. go J.B for supper and those times spent at the beach. Just listening to the waves and watching the night sky... I just wanted a companion, I don't need status. I just enjoyed being by his side, looking forward to each night he would spread his wings and fly to me ....

He too wanted me to change. Like Charles, he do not understand the culture of being a Goth and my fear of having to face humans and go to crowded places. Nevertheless, I tried. Just because I felt safe with him.. and the affection that he had shown to me.

Then came a time where he needed to go on a mission. I had to endure a week of not seeing him. We promised each other to do our own reflection because we both know that Seraphims have to return to the divine one day.

For my side, my reflection was:
1) be more positive towards life
2) trust the Seraphim more
3) be by his side whenever he needed me so that he wont feel so down.
4) Try to face crowds, throw less tantrums and not give him so much pressure.

Then .....

its yet again the issue of being fair....

The Seraphim's reflection was:
1) he feels that he is tying me down
2) to be FAIR, i should not be with a Seraphim but perhaps look for another Goth
3) he is facing too much problems and he does not want to burden me further.

So as the story goes ... Goodbye Seraphim. He din even return to the divine but he ditched me and went to do his own doings.

Fair?

what have I done wrong?

Daniel asked for chances, I gave him 10yrs of chances..

Charles asked for chances, I gave him 1yr plus of chances ...

The Seraphim asked for chances too ... many times in fact .. and .. I too ... gave him chances even knowing the fact that he belongs to the divine ...

But ...

Why is it whenever I try to change for the better, things begin to fall and crumble? Why isit whenever I try to make improvement to be someone and something that I am not that the other party had to leave ?????

Define Fair ....

This Hello Kitty is the only memory left behind by the Seraphim .....

Can anyone tell me ... What have I done wrong? By making improvements and being what he wants me to be ... isit wrong ? Why is there no chances given ??

~=+Shynna feels unjustified+=~

~=+Amazing But True+=~

2010-07-10T14:38:00.004+08:00

Trissy and I have known each other in the same secondary school. Well, Trissy is a special girl. To others, she looks very ugly and not attractive. When we were still schooling, the other schoolmates will make fun of her.

The reason is simple. Trissy is suffering from a chronic disorder known as Lupas. There is no cure for this illness, the only way is to be on long term medication. Patients suffering from Lupas will have patchy skin colour and often have rashes.

During our school days, the other schoolemates who were oblivious about her condition will make fun of her skin discolouration.

Lupus can be fatal because it affects not only the skin but also vital organs like kidneys and lungs. Patients have very low immune system because the body system is not able to tell the difference between harmful substances or healthy cells in the body. Which means the immune system in Trissy's body will fight away the bad cells and at the same time attack the healthy cells.

She is oftenly tired, having fever and unusual bruising. She has difficulty breathing at times and the medication that is being prescibed to her causes side effects like mouth ulcers, vomiting and increased thirst. These drugs also contain large amounts of steriods. Upon long term consumtion, it can cause weight gain.

This photo above was how Trissy looked years ago. Her condition was rather bad and the docs had to pump up her steriod intake level to 50mg. The dose of steriods had caused her to balloon up all of a sudden and she became the joker of the school. Those naughty kids will make fun of her skin n how fat she was.

Years later, which is somewhere like recently, I had a catch up session with her. I've been rather busy with a handful of things and had not seen her in such a long time. When I saw her, I was stunted~~@@@@@ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was expecting to see a fat lady making her way through the crowds and walk towards me. But ... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!

The pic above was what I saw !! Astounding as it may seem !! Gosh!! What happened to Fatty Trissy?? She looked so radiant and most importantly, SHE HAS SLIM DOWN!!!!

And she shared her secrete of successful weight loss formula with me. - ACUPUNCTURE SLIMMING !!

Wow~ its exactly the same local beauty lab which Jennifer went to.

Trissy was also given the 4 organic products as Jennifer.

-B&H

-IMU6

-S-Factor

-Celebtrim

How can it be? She's chronically ill and she has been on long term drugs for so many years. Wont there be any side effects if you mix n match medications any-o-how?

Trissy answered "No la, these products im taking are health supplements. Purely 100% organic from natural herbs and traditional Chinese Medicine. So, its perfectly OK to be taken together with the medication to control my medical condition."

+ASTONISHED+

She even went for a make over session to keep memories of her beautiful self. Trissy even bought the products for her mother. In the picture above, both of them are simply vibrant!! Trissy shared with me that the products can be taken daily as supplement to improve the immune system, bone mass and also maintain healthy looking skin and has an anti-aging effect, that's why she buy it for her mum too. She wants her mum to be young n healthy.

Currently, Trissy's immune system is much better. The docs have even lower her steroid intake to only 20mg instead of the original 50mg. Docs also say that her medical condition have improved tremendously and does not need to go for check ups as often. From once a month to now once every 3 months.

Trissy lost a total of 15kg during her treatment for acupuncture slimming. She is so much more confident than before. And obviously she looks prettier than before but most importantly, she is HEALTHIER than before.

Hmm ... now im wondering .... Is there anyone out there interested in acupuncture slimming? Or do u wana look like the sumo standing in between me n Trissy???

Hehehe ....

Email me at kayumi_80@hotmail.com if you are interested to know more !!

~=+Shynna is amazed+=~

~=+A Week of Decision Making and Planning+=~

2010-07-03T10:14:00.004+08:00

This week has been a tiring week for me. Having to make time to come up with ideas of designing new flyers and making a decision of whether I wana remain in my current company to be in-charge of the store n no longer be an admin ... +sigh+

Sometimes, in life, we usually get stuck at a crossroad where certain decisions are hard to make. Anyway, life still have to go on as the world is always revolving and stopping for no one. Aaaaaah ... I've gotten some feedback saying that I was being lazy in my previous entry when I introduced the oral products that Jennifer was taking during her process of slimming ..

Ok ok ok ... I admit, I was lazy and at the same time feeling tired and my mood has been horrible due to my seperation with the Seraphim .. +sigh+

And my health getting poorer .. +Damn+

nose bleeding for few days .. but nevertheless, like I say, life goes on. So this entry, I shall make up for my "laziness" in the past entry and talk about the product details all over again.

CLEARLY THIS TIME OF COS .... LOL ....

The weight management programme comes with 4 different types of organic products to be taken orally.

1) B&H Capsules - 排毒美颜宝

These capsules contain a potent combination of several different types of Traditional Chinese Medicine which is formulated to remove toxins within the body system. It is able to successfully remove 80% of the toxins and also able to break down stubborn fats in the body system. The capsules promotes a better digestive system as well.

The unique formulation is able to balance the vital systems of the body and maintain a balance circulation of the blood and oxygen.

2) IMU6 Colostrum - IMU6 牛初乳

Colostrum is a vital source of supplement that is suitable for everyone from infants to the elderly. The benefits of consuming colostrum actually increases the energy in the body and strengthten the immune system. It has an anti-aging effect and for those whom had consumed this product before claims to have a better overall health. Colostrum also helps increase bone mass, promotes healing of wounds and also prevent the formation of scars. At the same time it is able to restore skin elasticity and burn excess fat that had accumulated in our body.

3) S- Factor Plus

S-factor plus is designed to provide an overall nutrition need for the body system without having to take any additional synthetic vitamin pills. For individuals who lives a hectic lifestyle, this is the perfect solution to stay healthy the easy and convenient way.

S-factor also contains additional Oat Bran Concentrate. If being consumed daily, it may reduce the risk of heart disease. It is 100% organic and contains no chemicals, colouring or flavouring.

4) Celebtrim H-P57

Celebtrim H-P57 is an excellent appetite suppressant that tricks the mind into believing that you are not hungry. Amazing as it may seem. There are no side effects to this product at all. The ingredient that is used to formulate this product are also 100% organic.

The main ingredient is a cactus-like plant call Hoodia.

Above is an example of a Hoodia plant. In Africa, the African bushman take hoodia to ward off hunger during famine periods or during long hunting trips.

Medical science has also clinically proven that this product automatically controls the mind for the urge for food intake. Several obese individuals have also reported a lower calorie intake after the consumtion of Celebtrim. Therefore it contributes as an essential in the wight loss programme.

Well, after talking so much of the products used in Jennifer Hing's slimming process, and you still have any doubts, all of u can call her at 97410552 to talk to her personally.

Jennifer is not the only successful slimming case for acupuncture. Trissy Chan, my ex-school mate from secondary school is also another successful case. I will Talk More about her case in the next entry ...

SO LONG !!!!!

~=+Shynna wants to take a nap now+=~ zzzz.... ~ yawnzzzz ....

~=+A week of Ups n Downs But not Forgetting Work+=~

2010-06-28T19:05:00.009+08:00

Yo yoyo ...
Its yet another week past ... not feeling very good though cos just suffered a heart break. The seraphim had decided to leave the princess .. +sigh+

But .. life still goes on, the world is still revolving and it stops for no one .. and yeah , i also must move on and stop for no one either..

Saturday went crazy and went to Shanghai Dolly for an eventful night of DRINK DRANK DRUNKIE AND DANCE ... woooooo ~ tiring ...

No more voodoo and gong tau for now ... Now back to seriousness. Wuahahaha !

I wonder if you guys still remember about the acupuncture slimming case of Jennifer Hing? Erm .. Can Click here --- > ~=+Stressful Weeks On Ends+=~ To help refresh your memory.

Well, today i would like to touch on the products which i mentioned in the previous post which help enhance the full effects of acupuncture slimming. Apparently, I only wrote about the products but did not show how they look like. And I have feedback from certain readers that if the explanations can be in Chinese will be best.

Ok .. so here goes. - Acupuncture slimming = 针灸减肥疗法

so, like i mentioned before, with the improvement of medical science, acupuncture can not only cure the normal ailments and pain now it can also help lose that extra pounds.

Acupuncture is the procedure of inserting and manipulating needles
into various points on the body to relieve pain or for therapeutic purposes

Acupuncture can be effective in the treatment of neurological conditions and enhance energy flow and blood circulation in the body system.

It is not only able to cure traditional aliments but also ease pain of joints,improve your body immune system and certain chronic illnesses, like diabeties, stroke, insomia and even depression.

针灸可以在有效的治疗神经系统疾病
提高能量的流动和血液在体内循环体系。

它不仅能治疗传统伊希也减轻关节疼痛，改善你的身体免疫系统和某些慢性疾病像糖尿病，中风，抑郁，甚至失眠。

现在，随着医疗科学的进步，它可以帮助你失去额外磅，在最重要的是，你的身体系统将成为强大，也有解毒作用。

I hope that the above explanations suits those Chinese readers as well .. Well, if still having doubts, Why now call Jennifer Hing now to make more inquiries ?? 97410552

Isnt it always better to get the real successful slimming candidate to give you a fuller explanation?

~=+Shynna says " DON'T WAIT. CALL NOW!!! +=~

~=+Unleashed The Devil Within+=~

2010-06-24T18:48:00.016+08:00

Well well well .... everyone ... a movie that I once watched left a deep impression in my mind. Till this very day, I will always remember that the beginning of all curses and voodoos started of with Love, Hate and then Revenge ..

Eventually, I am never born normal .. my life have always suck. And recently suck even more .. Hmm ~ The title of this movie is called :

GONG TAU aka An Oriental Black Magic

Hmm .. the story line began when a handsome policeman from Hong Kong was called to Thailand to investigate a crime which involved a HK underground syndicate. During his stay there, he met into a stripper named Elli. And as you have guessed ... They had an affair.

The policeman name Lok Mun thought its just a one time thingy and decided to pay her. But he cant resist the temptation and he visited Elli every night during his stay in Thailand. Eventually, Elli fell in love with him and they became sort of like a couple.

But one day, Lok Mun was ordered by the CID HQ to return HK. He then promised Elli that give him sometime to settle his work things and he will surely come back to Thailan d to se e her. So, Elli waited for 3 years. But Luk Mun M.I.A totally ... so what she is a stripper? She has feelings too. Her love and trust for Luk Mun was real and since. She could not take the heart break therefore, Elli took her own life in a gorily

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She slit her own throat and died horribly in the toilet. There was a man, Yu Gu, he was a crippled in the movie if im not wrong. He loved Elli and wanted to take revenge for Elli, as she died horribly just because a flirtatious policeman WHOM IS MARRIED in HK cheated Elli's feelings ..

3 years after, Lok Mun's wife got pregnant and gave birth to a cute son. Somehow mysteriously, while he was on night shift, his wife, Karpi woke up and found their new born son DEAD!!!

!

Forensic could not find anything wrong with the baby's corpse. Then now long after the baby died, Karpi began to suffer from mysterious pains all over her body. She was admitted to the hospital many times but as usual, the docs could not find anything wrong with her ....

Hahaha ... so Yu Gu was using black magic to deal with Luk Man and his whole family to take revenge for Elli's heart broken suicide.. Needles and hex dolls, even dead corpse oil was used

Yu Gu even practiced the deadliest of all Thai Voodoo called the Flying Head Voodoo to make sure that Luk Mun and his wife will suffer..

What will happen to Luk Mun and his lovely wife? Why did this dumb policeman bluff the stripper and cheated on his wife??

Click ~=+Gong Tau+=~ to find out.....

Dun mess with the blaire with when u don't have the powers ...

Compare to the inscriptions of the devil on de lady on the above pic, the sak yant below ...

Although Sakyant are magical tattoos for the ancient Thai warriors, they signified manhood and protect the soldiers when they faced their enemies in the battlefield. Now at this new age, Sakyant is no longer just for the soldiers but for anyone who is determine to reach out for them and ready for it.

So what ??

Mess with me ? ... u pay ... even if i get to burn in hell ...

ผู้ที่โกงที่ภรรยาและเกลือกกลั้วกับผู้หญิงจะต้องจ่ายสำหรับการกระทำของเขาไม่ดี ปีศาจจะสิงสู่เขาและขาดเขาแยก, แบ่งครอบครัวของเขาและฆ่าเขาและประจักษ์ในจิตใจของเขา

ไม่มีโชคดีจะอยู่กับเขาเพื่อศิลปะของมารคือเมื่อเขาขณะนี้

I แม่มดเป่าจะปล่อยสาปแช่งของเจ้าที่เจ้า

จ่ายสำหรับพฤติกรรมที่ผิดของคุณ

DPTL - aka the leave man aka the sha huhu .....

i think u must have forgotten who am I ....

Break my heart .. Pay .. once broken, considered sold.

~=+Shynna rather be feared than Loved+=~

~=+Our Farewell - (Song by Within Temptation)+=~

2010-06-20T18:43:00.003+08:00

In my hands, a legacy of memories
(All those good n bad times we've spent.. by the beach, my 1st prawning trip ... etc..)

I can hear you say my name
I can almost see your smile
Feel the warmth of your embrace
(every night, this is the scene I've always dream of)

But there is nothing but silence now (You M.I.A for so many days... no reply of sms even)
Around the one I loved
Is this our farewell? (So ... is this the way that our love will end?)

Sweet darling you worry too much (I knw u hv ur work problems and sales not hit)
my child See the sadness in your eyes (using my innocence, i feel ur sadness)
You are not alone in life (u hv a family, friends n also not forgetting having me by ur side)
Although you might think that you are

Never thoughtThis day would come so soon (its sooner or later u will choose this path but i never expected that it will be now that i need u most by my side)

We had no time to say goodbye (u went to camp ... n that was the last i've seen of u)
How can the world just carry on? (the world still revolves. i still hv to work, day night cycle still going on)

I feel so lost when you are not by my side (esp now .. when i am facing probs with my ex husband and his dumb police case and me .. just came out from hospital)

But there's nothing but silence now
Around the one I loved (you sms me today {20/06/2010} saying that u wanted to be alone)
Is this our farewell? (so ... this is the way our relationship ends?)

So sorry your world is tumbling down (and yet i cant do anything to help despite me keep helping u to give out flyers on wkends and thinking of ways to create awareness)

I will watch you through these nights
Rest your head and go to sleep (don't think so much. i hope ur probs will solve soon. i've been watching over u almost every night for the past 6months.. so .. take care if u can)

Because my child, this not our farewell.
This is not our farewell. (we will still remain as friends ... we will meet again i'm sure)

~=+Shynna feels so lost and alone+=~

~=+Feelings of A Surrealist+=~

2010-06-14T16:15:00.007+08:00

As he staggered toward me, the image of a once a horrendous monster who used to abuse me, was nothing but a wounded and mummified creature.. defeated as he may seemed, his sorrow in his eyes, the sadness of aura that he brought. As his wounds bleed within his bandages, my heart filled with pain n bleed together as each beat pounded.

Where is the king of all kings that used to be so up high? The image I saw of him was nothing but a beast who was torn apart by someone whom did not cherish him as much as I did. Every breath I drew filled with paroxysm. The out burst of sensation where the agonizing sourness fill up every essence of my soul, every part of me.

Every night, the same nightmare haunts me, I cried in silence, letting the agony engulf me just like the darkness that covers the night sky. I cried tears of pain, agony, sorrow and heart break. The creature whom I once cherished and loved had been cut up due to his outrage of anger.

To me, I'm used to it. As once his wife, i endured with whatever i could put up.

I am a daughter, a mum, a grand daughter, a friend. The roles that I've played in my life, I was once his partner, a student, a young girl and now I am a grown woman. I was once broken but make whole again.

I am confident, but scar for life during the battles i fought for the liberty I have today. I learn to be careful but at times still careless, I was misunderstooded, misguided, misleaded perhaps .. but i am hardworking, and determined. Therefore I changed.

I wish on the stars, Dream on my Dreams .. Cry my tears .. oh so every night in the reticence alone.

I smile on the outside while I'm dying on the inside. I listened to others whom (Daniel) whom wont listen to me. I walk on egg shells and even on fire, I strongly believe in passion but never in true love. I am everything and on the contrary, I am nothing all at once.

Sometimes I am in despair, when the person I care about heartlessly left and chosen another. But the truth is, its not my lost but his (Daniel). Because he left the only person in this whole wide world who would never give up on him. Being the fact that he is still my daughter's father.

I've done my best ... even as a friend. Ended up got blamed for harassing that slut who cut him up and broke his heart ... all these years, i protected him ... never wanted him to bleed. i'd rather the person who is bleeding and mummified is me ... my aching heart.. traumatized feelings are daunting me ... cant concentrate.. cant work .. cant think properly .... night after night having the same dream of him being dismembered, wrapped up and thrown into the sea ....

the blood the pain .....

Give me a reason to believe that you are gone and never coming back ... Some say I'm crazy for your love but no bonds can hold me back from being still caring over you. The softly spoken words that once you have given me ....

and even in death my love goes on ....

~=+Shynna Just Being Surrealistical+=~

~=+Mazohyst of Decadence+=~

2010-06-10T09:22:00.012+08:00

Doc:is it really okay?

Girl:yes

Doc:is this your first time?

Girl:yes, it's my first

Doc:I have killed countless children can you forgive me?

Girl:...

Doc:I ask one more time, is it really okay?

Girl:yes

Doc:are you ready?

Girl:yes

Doc:well then, let's begin

Child that will be born adults with no sense of guilt fallen
I who has no name why am I here I don't even understand, but
I don't know that I only have a few months to live...

I want to love I want to be born inside this mother's body, staring
since the time I waited for consciousness two months on I sensed something fast
yet I could do nothing that cord of ours will be...

I, incomplete, my body pierced through with hooked pain
mother's screaming voice, ringing in my ears, will not cease white coated adults scooped me up

in eyes overflowing with cold heartedness bloody, without a right hand, I am reflected
just as I was, in black vinyl I am wrapped, engulfed

while my consciousness is gradually fading, I consider quietly
if I, caged, am loved as I am, that is good it cannot be forgiven

it's better that I, unlovable, died as I am
in quiet I shall sleep without giving my first cry

just once, I want to feel a mother's love
maybe this is love

thank you
a door that never opens was closing tight
but I am surely your future, and so...

my body burned, consumed until my bones become nothing burned, destroyed

goodbye .....

Since then .... he never left me .... my 1st unborn ...

Mummy loves u and appreciated all these while u have been protecting me against those whom brought me harm, sadness and pain .. but dear boy ... dun harm daddy ... JUZ HARM THAT SLUT WHO TOOK HIM AWAY ....

~=+Shynna loves her son+=~

~=+Answers to a Cranky Person+=~

2010-06-01T08:56:00.010+08:00

I hope that all the answers i given below will enlighten you and stop throwing all these qns to me at times when all my brain juice are all used up !!!

1) My favourite brand of bag is call NARAYA. NOT gunaya or watever name u wana call it.

2) When using a false voice projected frm the diaphragm to hit high notes, the term is call FALSETO .. not potato .. or .. .. -___-

3) How deep is the deepest sea bed?
Ans: The deepest point in the ocean is the Mariana Trench, located in the Pacific Ocean. It has a maximum depth of 10,923 metres.

4) How deep did the titanic sink?
Ans: 12,460 feet on the sea bed.

4) What is nibiru ?
Ans: a strange planet that comes through the solar system every 3600 years and causes major destruction.

5) What creatures can be found in de deep ocean?

This is call the sun fishThis is an angler fish .... 5000meters deep in de ocean.

THis is the colosal squid .. the largest of all species also 5000meters deep.

6) Lake within the ocean??
Ans: A team of scientists based in Japan and Germany has found an unusual "lake" of liquid carbon dioxide beneath the ocean floor.
it is 4600feet below sea level .....

ANYMORE QNS FOR LIL SHYNNA KNOW IT ALL ???

~=+What Happen To My Most Anticipated Sundays?+=~

2010-05-31T09:46:00.005+08:00

Im sitting in my office having the monday blues.. clocked in at 9.20am cos this morning i cant find the darn house keys ... nvm ... argh ... still pondering and wondering how come now a days i keep having mood swings..

I tot by meeting him will make me feel better ... but whenever he has a suggestion of doing things i dun feel like doing or going places i dun feel like going .. i get steamed .. but recently, after learning his stress and problems that he is facing at work, i try to give in to wherever he wana go n doing whatever he suggests ... in my mind, all i have to do is endure the few hours and soon it be over, i can go home and sleep ....

Usually, im looking forward to sundays, so that i can see him. Most times we spent eating supper, going to the beach, finding places to juz cuddle up, make out ...

Recently .. the feelings seemed to be different. Last nite i met him. I've juz sprained my ankle on Saturday, its not reli serious, the swelling had gone down. But the pain is still there. When i met him at the carpark, he was on the line with someone. I knw is work related so i din wana disturbed him. After the phone call, we headed to help my mum post letters den headed to changi for supper. I watched him eat as usual as i dun take supper ...

There was not much of a conversation. He was worried about the closing date of his sales in which i am redundant at a point i am of not much help. Can only listen to his probs n snags at that point. And he initiated that he wanted to make phone calls to some ppl so that he can prospect them in getting his sales target for the month. I was a lil turn off... we finally get to meet and i tot we were suppose to spent quality time together, yet he said he wanted to make phone calls to try close the sales ... i knw work is important... nevertheless, i can only bare with it and juz let him do wat he deem fit.

After supper, we went to take a walk along the Changi beach. My ankle was hurting due to the sprain, both my calves ached as i was giving out flyers door to door on both Friday and Saturday. I cant reli voice out my agony, i juz followed each and every foot step he took to look for a quiet spot to sit down. Apparently, its the school holidays season, so, each and every nook was filled with groupies and was very rowdy..

I got so fed up with walking along the beach, cant tolerate the noise and also my aching calves and ankle, i suggested to leave. I kept quiet thru out the whole trip in the car.. baring the pain in my legs...

he den suggested that we find a quiet spot to make out .. in which we did... after which he sent me home. Never did he asked abt my abrasion on my left shoulder.. the aches in my calves for running block to block and door to door giving out flyers ... having fallen down the stairs and injuring my ankle .. if i were to confront him, he will tell me that "he did not ask does not mean he not concern. he did not show does not mean he not heart pain. he does not respond does not mean he dun appreciate."

so .. i learn to keep quiet and let him do whatever he feels is right. Knowing his woes of wanting to hit his sales target so badly, i dun wana add on to the stress to him by nagging at him. Juz quietly sit by him, stand by him, hoping that everything went smooth for him.

and i'm not sure if he is getting cranky .. he recently began asking me about the depth of the sea bed, my knowledge of 2012, asking me about random stuff in which i had given him the answers long long ago .. or have we reli ran out of topics to tok about?

to me, sunday used to be a day where we juz snug into each others' arms and tok nonsense, juz laughed and joke abt almost anything .. but recently i have been attacked by random and tactical qns which require my brain power.. in which most of it has been used up cos i've been helping him doing write ups and testimonials of his biz and coming up wit strategies to gain awareness .. my brain is almost empty and the power close to used up ....

am i doing the right thing? where is this relationship heading to?
i love him too much to let go, love him too much to add on to his burden. can only share his probs, help to solve his snags .. and on my part, suffer in silence .....

~=+Shynna love him too much to voice out her pain cos she does not wana add on to his burdens+=~

~=+Stressful Weeks On Ends+=~

2010-05-28T12:48:00.006+08:00

Its been a tiring few weeks for me. My day job burning me out with deadlines after deadlines. Used to be handling only simple accounts and commission, tally sales figure and such. Now i am being taught how to deal with visa/master transactions and the deduction of IPP and such. Best part, preparing roadshow forms, and the necessary things that the road show staff needs.

And now, inventory and audit of goods are also my job.. +geez+ Im really burning out. And I am trying my best to perform, dun wana let those who carry hopes on me. Now times are really different. I've moved home with mum and paying for certain things on the household as I feel I am obligated to since she is kind enough to put me up.

Now comes the bombastical part where I have to do things out of affection. Printing flyers, giving them out door to door under the HOT SUN - My nemesis .... hais ...

Its stressful and wearing me down. I have not been feeling well recently. Having constant migraines and giddiness.. I did not tell anyone about this cos .. dun wan anyone to worry. Showing up at work everyday without MC cos i dun wana disappoint my boss as well.. I have no social life. No more parties, drinking till pukes, dun even have time to meet up with friends for proper dinner or catching up ... Just because I am subjected to do things out of AFFECTION

Well, so the most recent dining experienced I had was with someone by the name of Jennifer. Since I'm like so enthu about this acupuncture slimming, I decided to meet another person whom had went thru the whole process. The results are astounding. Apart from the article I wrote for The Kiasu Times (last issue was in May), the successful slimming case of Trissy Chan. I met Jennifer to learn more about the whole process.

This is Jennifer after she given birth to her 2nd child. She weighed about 68kg, almost close to 70kg. At her height of 157cm, she is over weight. Extremely overweight I should say. And the it was causing her knee caps joints to be very painful to carry her excessive weight. Doing housework like mopping the floor caused her to suffer from servere and acute pain to the joints of her knee caps and ankles joints. Even climbing short stairways caused her to huff and puff for air.

According to the BMI calculation (weight(kg) divided by height(M) multiply by height(M), Jennifer had a BMI of 28.12, its over weight and close to obesse. A healthy person should have the BMI calculation of about 18 to 22.

Jennifer got worried about her aching joints, therefore she went to consult her family doctor. The doctor prescribed her some pain killers and also adviced her to lose weight as her legs are not able to endure her heavy weight. Jennifer then went to a beauty spa saloon to sign up a weight lost package.

She spent more than $3000, buying products after products. She was wrapped with transparent film applied with so called fat burning formula. Consultants even gave her a diet plan to follow. After the treatment sessions were completed, Jennifer lost nothing only her $3000. The slimming programme did not work at all. She felt cheated and dishearten.

Fortunately, she met a friend whom introduced her to acupuncture slimming.

The picture above is Jennifer now. I met her just last Wednesday. Look at the drastical effects and the magic of acupuncture slimming!!

Jennifer went to a local beauty lab introduced by her friend and signed up a 3mths course for acupuncture slimming. This weight management package comes with 4 organic traditional chinese medicine oral products.

1) B&H capsules - this product endhances the colon system to function effectively and remove toxic that are in our body. It also promotes a better digestive system and break down stubborn fats.

2) S-Factor Plus - this is actually a supplement for people who lead a busy lifestlye and have no time for proper meals. It is 100% organic, contains no sturated fats and can also help reduce the risk of heart disease.

3) IMU 6 Colostrum - It improves the body absorption of nuitrents, increases bone mass,

streghten the body immune system and can regulate the body foundations preventing a person not to fall sick so easily and also wounds heal faster. The metalbolism rate will also increase.

4) Celebtrim H-P57 - This special product is able to cause the brain to think that the stomach is full. (incredible right?) It can curb the calorie intake and suppress appetite. Most importantly. this product is made of a cactus-like plant call the Hoodia, therefore it contains no harmful chemicals or causes any side effects.

With all the products mentioned above and a few sessions of acupuncture to enhance the body energy flow and blood circulation, Jennifer manage to lose 14.5kg within 3 months. She now weighs 53.5kg. And her BMI reading is 21, under the healthy range. All her muscle joints problems are also all cured thru all the acupuncture sessions.

Wonderful isnt it?

You can click on the facebook link --> ~=+Beauty is Just this Easy+=~

Or you can email me at kayumi_80@hotmail.com Leave me ur contact number and arrange an appointment to come down to our lab for a full body analysis !!

~+=Shynna wants everyone to knw acupuncture Slimming is EFFECTIVE!=+~

~=+The Interesting Facts+=~

2010-05-15T22:05:00.008+08:00

Hey all,

Thanks for the email responds on the acupuncture slimming that i've gotten few days ago. And i've realised that most of you throw me the same question. I will hereby share the more facts of acupuncture with you hope that it can be of more help to answering your questions.

Most of you have thrown me the number one question:

DOES IT HURT?? needles !!! sounds scary.

OK, now here is the answer:

Modern acupunturist uses disposable stainless steel needles of fine diameter. According to the measurement is about 0.18 to 0.5mm, which is far far finer than normal needles which are used for injections.

According to the picture above, all of u can see the measurement. Now compare to a normal injex needle below:

The left needle with the red tip is so so so so much finer than compared to the normal needle on the right. So as u can see, if an acupuncture needle penetrates the flesh, it only causes little or no pain at all if ur pain endurance is high.

Interesting isnt it?

The benefits of acupuncture are almost endless.. from curing ailments, pain, and most importantly if the improvement of medical science, now it can even help in weight lost !!!

so, do not hesitate. Email me at kayumi_80@hotmail.com and leave me ur contact particulars so that our friendly consultant can get back to you asap or simply juz dial 98179541

~=+Shynna loves sharing facts+=~

~=+Come Give It A Try+=~

2010-05-11T18:47:00.006+08:00

Hahaha .... the comic strip above ...

how many of us have experienced such things? exercising, dieting ... but the weight seems to be always there.

Well Well, y not try acupuncture slimming?
A safe method of not only losing that extra pounds but also able to adjust our health. Build up a better immune system and lead a healthier lifestyle without the hassle of depriving yourself from good food and also the pleasure of a relaxing way to lose weight?? Email me @ kayumi_80@hotmail.com for more quires!! Don't wait!!

~=+Shynna encourages acupuncture slimming+=~

~=+A Week of Enlightenment and New Knowledge+=~

2010-04-17T16:53:00.010+08:00

Hmm, would like to start of with a lil update about myself b4 sharing my new knowledge, therefore today's post will be much much much much.. pretty much longer than usual. Hee ~ ^^

Ok, I've finally moved out of the slumps now, currently putting up at a friend's house on the temp. Things are looking good I hope, at least now that I have a proper closet to store all my dresses and clothings. Also a proper bed to sleep on and not forgetting the comfort of the air-conditioning and also CLEAN TOILET AND CLEANER ENVIRONMENT !!! ~yippie~

The next thing that I would like to share is something I had recently learnt.

- Acupuncture -

Sounds painful right? Having the thought of needles after needles pricking into various parts of the body... ~ewe~

But this is just a misconception. According to my research, this method of traditional Chinese medicine is close to completely painless. The person going through it will only feel a slight tingle during the insertion process and that's it.

This method of treatment can treat alot of ailments, such as muscle joint aches, enhances the nervous system and also build up a person's immune system. A trained physician will target the acupoints of the body and insert the needles to the patient's body. Hence, it promotes energy flow in the body.

Therefore with this energy flow, the patient becomes healthier. However, recently I came across someone whom shared with me another benefit of acupuncture.

- Acupuncture Slimming -

Interesting?

Yeah yeah ... it can be done.

Well, as all of us know, weight gain can cause a lot of health problems. Example, heart problems, stroke etc.....

There is a local beauty lab using such a method to cater to different people with different types of weight problems. As each individual has a different body structure, everyone faces various problems with their bodies. Thus, from what I heard, at this local beauty lab, each patient is being analysed by a professional consultant and from there, they are given a custom made solution which best suits each individual.

With the help of mild electrocution, hard to target areas like abdomen, thighs and arms can be toned up in just a few sessions.

Many of them whom went there before had experienced weight lost of 10kg to 15kg. These people gained back not only their confidence but also their health. I have a friend whom went there and underwent the treatment before. And now, her medical condition has improved and her medication dosage was also reduced. (her story will be featured in the May issue of The Kiasu Times)

Its really amazing how this treatment works. It not only helps to adjust one's health, improve one's lifestyle and also help to lose that extra pounds.

Hmm ~~ how indeed amazing it can be ... there are many wonders that these little little needles can do. With a train physician, it can help to cure so many many issues at one go.

SO ...... acupuncture slimming anyone??

~=+Shynna wana be slim slim+=~

~=+I Have Maxed Out My Patience+=~

2010-04-12T12:11:00.007+08:00

I am so freaking Pek CHEK !! i have used out my limits.. MY level of tolerance is USED UP at this point i have to deliver to landing EVERYONE in a predicament if i must.

I am putting up at my relative's house for sometime now. Noting that she house me in for free, so i will in return do laundry, clean the house and help out as much as i can...

but it taking a toll on me cos i realise, no matter how much i clean the house, its oways in a mess.. and WHY ?? COS NONE OF THE REST OF THE MEMBERS UPKEEP THE MAINTENANCE!! I KEEP CLEAN, THEY MESS UP !!! EVERY WEEK IS THE SAME !!

now its to an extend i dun even feel like cleaning up anymore cos i reli feel is wasting my effort ... i on my part trying as much as possible to clean up n wash up, the rest of the ppl juz nvr seem to be helping me in any sense... now i have decided to GIVE UP!! wash my hands off instead of having to wash toilets, MOP THE WHOLE 5 ROOM flat, only ending up every FUCKING WEEK, ITS A MESS...

U all wana see how messy?? i SHOW U ALL !!
this is FUCK !!
During the CNY festive i have managed to clear the kitchen to sparkling clean .. n now its only 2mths after all the festive .. but the rubbish looks as though accumulated for like ONE YEAR PLUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nobody bother to UPKEEP THE cleanliness and its driving me nuts that i am being asked to MOP n Sweep 2x every week only have things back to square one only like 2 days after i clean up !!!!

I am really in a dilemma!!!!!

Last but not least i was give a room which was in a messed... initially i did packed and make into comfy for me ... but now I TOTALLY GIF UP ..
since there is not a sense of personal hygiene in this FUCKING HOUSEHOLD, den dun expect me to be any cleaner ... I GIVE UP!!!!!!!!

I REPEAT = I GIVE UP!!!!!!!!

~=+Shynna GIVE UP+=~

~=+Eye Opening Busy & Sick Week+=~

2010-04-06T09:53:00.003+08:00

What can be more worst than to be so held up with never ending work load .. geez ... have to deal with my day job, have to sort out time for TKT's article and have to finish up Feron's bloggy shoppy.. Wala ~ its finally DONE !! Interested can visit ~=+Beauty Rejuvenate+=~ to take a look at the facial products that are available.

And last week, i was so pretty DOWN AND OUT. Flu, Fever and .. what could be much worst? I did not see the seraphim for the whole of last week .. T_T +sad+

he too was down and out with flu and other issues.. we actually planned to go prawning last Thursday but ... due to certain unforeseen circumstances, the initial schedule was cemented. And the whole week, i was so superly held up. I ignored him for a few days in a row and did not even have the time to reply his sms-es.

I was a lil disappointed with him in some ways as well. At 1st i thought i wanted to put an end to it. Stop seeing him once n for all. I went out on my own to venture and look see ... end up, i cant lie to myself. +I FEEL HAPPIER WITH THE SERAPHIM+

The look see was a disaster... met into a few childish people.. People whom are self-centered, people whom think of nothing but fame n money. Ish ~ such people have no heart of compassion and usually attention seeking.

Well, my mentality is beyond all the fame n money shit. I just wana be happy. i can think of anything else than that. Money, i can oways earn, fame, i dun need the attention anyway.. i prefer my low profile life..

hmm~ and last Friday, Good Friday, i went Jamming with I.O.D despite having a horrible flu and sore throat .. only ended up sounding more NASAL than usual over the sound system ... gees ... T_T +sadder+

after one wk of busy and getting settle with my things ... Yeah .. finally met him on sunday n went prawning !! ^_^

There's no footages of the prawns or the events due to some obscure reasons. Nevertheless, i felt very very happy to have spent time with him. Last nite, we went to JB for car wash and supper.. And maybe going to catch Clash of the Titans later ... so excitied !!

I dun have to be shown in public - i am not an ornament
I dun need u to gif me a status - i am happy with who i am and what i am
i just want u to be with me - this is all that i ask.

~=+Shynna is happy to be with the Seraphim again+=~

~=+放我去飞+=~

2010-03-22T13:33:00.007+08:00

是种想想，这些日子有了他的纯在，心里会觉得有些温暖。可是，已在回头看看，

我所拥有的一切，也可能在一夜之间化为乌有。

有很多很多的事情，并非我所能控制，尤其是感情的事。

我时常会问我自己，“为什么会爱上他？” 可但却重来没有一个可以解释的理由。有时

候，非常想要放弃，可是却舍不得离去。。。我能够过着这样的日子多久呢？我也不知

道。只知道，已经到了一个无法收回的地步。难道这就是爱情的力量吗？

我无法想象，若是有一天，我将永远的无法和他见面，那么，往后得我会是怎样？

我多么希望能够走着白天走的路，可以大方的牵着她的手，不要再等他的电话。。。

请放我去飞。。。好吗？

~=+Shynna feels like letting go+=~

~=+Gloom Cookie+=~

2010-03-17T18:29:00.008+08:00

I was being thrown a qns 2 nites ago. He asked me y i named him the seraphim. Well, perhaps it was much being inspired by Serena Valentino's gothic comic - Gloom Cookie.

Its all about this girl, Lex, her cursed love life. Surrounding the mysterious circus and ring master and also not forgetting the creatures involve.

Lex and Damion were truly in love but their love was a cursed one. In the series, Lex dies or Damion dies... anyway ... Damion was married to Isebella, the so called evil queen. Never did anyone knw the twist that she was also having a cursed life as she was madly in love with a ware wolf. Damion and Isebella were always arranged by their fathers to get married. and as usual they did not love each other non the less...

And some how in every reincarnation, Damion and Lex were bound to meet up and fall in love but only having one of them to die a horrible death ....

gees .....

i wonder will i die a horrible death since the seraphim appeared now ????

knowing that there wont be a happy ending to this curse, yet i step foot in it ..... perhaps this is my life's little piece of gloom cookie ~

and perhaps this is how the name Seraphim came about ... he to be named thy Seraphim

~=+Shynna eaten yet another piece of gloom cookie+=+~

~=+THE MARCH anticipated issue+=~

2010-03-12T15:15:00.006+08:00

Tee Hee Hee ~~ im back .. haven been blogging while cos am being tied down by a handful of things. Ever since the seraphim appeared in my life, i spent many sleepless nights by his side and having no time to loan a netbook for blogging... gee weezzz ....

work is also ever so tiring and busy... am multi-tasking all the darn time. nevertheless, I had a wonderful time over at Macau and Zhu Hai for like 4days... enjoyed the food, the scenery, the casinos (although i din hit a windfall ~ LOL), the shopping and ultimately, the 9 degrees temperature !! woo HOO ~

i even had my hair extended, now dun need to wait for it to grow .. since the seraphim wanted me to have long hair, might as well have it instantly since im over at Zhu Hai where things are like DARN CHEAP !!

not forgetting to get drink drank drunkie overseas too .. haha ~~
and now that i am back in SG .. things are back to normal.. - Dull, repetitive, and not forgetting the dense and humid heavy air that we breathe every sec .. ~ewe~

Well, next week will be busy busy busy .. need to complete a task which Feron asked me to do and then meet up with one of the chosen band for April's issue of Kiasu Times. Oooh yaa ... according to Garuto, TKT has hit a 7000 readership for March Issue !! wooo hoooo ~~ gd things are happening ~~

buahahaha ~ cant wait for the next wave ~ +BRING IT ON+

hmm ~ though i feel a little uneasy about a handful of things that are going on currently.. perhaps will reveal what's bothering me in my next entry.. stay tune !!

CHEERIO ~~

~=+Shynna hates the dense and heavy air in SG+=~

~=+Its all About Having The Best of Both Worlds+=~

2010-03-01T09:59:00.003+08:00

I was being thrown a few questions last nite which left me a lil speechless at the beginning. But after much consideration, I think I am able to face things and handle things at a more rational stage at this point of my life.

Well, he asked me if it was fair for me to be that hidden lady in the midst. He asked me y am I doing this ..

To me, its not about why.. there is not logical explanation to my choice. Perhaps, just plain simple, I was not given much of a choice to begin with. Even though how much i tell myself that i cant fall for him. But somehow, things have had happened. And, somehow there are a few development to certain things that have been kept blanketed.

And its not about the choice i was given. There are certain things in which i cant control. When 2 people meet up, this is fate. when things develop, it is call destiny, when good things happen, it is call natural and when things happen for the worst, it is nothing but karma...

At this moment i am still in control. But for how long? I'm not sure. i can only say that i enjoy the simplicity now and noting the fact that i did not ask for such things to happen. No one can control the feelings of the heart. Every one has the right to feel... and i just think that there is nothing wrong to develop a little something for someone even though that someone may not feel like wise.

No one can have the best of both worlds. Nothing is ever fair. Can only say that we met at the wrong time at the wrong place. And eventually, 2 people meet for a cause, and be it a simple cause or a complicated one, 2 people have already met up and things are in the realms of rebus ..

it has started. This is only the beginning and it is yet to end. Blame no one at all. Live with it and no complains. This is the key to willingness....

and i think somehow most of you would have guessed it ....

A new creature has appeared ... and he is somehow ... a forbidden creature .....
~=+Shynna develope feelings+=~

~+=Woo HOo CNY - MIA - SUPER BUSSSYYYY=+~

2010-02-23T18:00:00.011+08:00

Happy CNY one and all ...
I've been so darn busy that I have no time to blog!! My Goth-ness .. CNY had been nothing much exciting for me. Drink ~ Drank ~ Drunk-ness, as usual. I spent Vday Drinking Dranking n Drunking ... nothing was really special. Perhaps am being a lil too choosy than usual.

Well, before the festive, I've been jamming here there n everywhere again ... the band search thingy is getting more and more depressing. Hafiz decided to quit, together with Lily .. ~sigh~

Now is just back to basics.. once more looking for new Members.. Nevertheless, my interview with the 2 bands was more than exciting. Hee ~ Looking forward to have the article in the March Issue of The Kiasu Times. tee ~ hee ~ Hee ~~

And me and ah how spent a wonderful nite together last nite. Went to a place call Mr Punch.Had the photo snap off from a coaster. Its Ah How's bday .. and he is now .... 31 yrs old ~~ ... or should i say that he is back to 13 instead?? lolsss

And as usual, i had him ordered something that we both can share. and guess wad ?? this dude ... he ordered >>>>>> ... a plate of GIAGANTIC SNAILS !!!!

lolsss .... its escargot in onion broth ... buahahahaha

u should have seen the expression on his face !!!

he had this WTF look on his face cos this fella dun eat shell fish.. clams and oysters are the NO NOs for him... haha ~~ well, being spotting, he pry out one of it ...
LOLss .... but then .. he refused to eat it and he fed me the 1st snail.. well well ... so its my turn to pry out one creepy crawly for him ....
and so ... here is me forcing him to chew the crawler !! Woooo ~ being the bird day Boi .. he sportingly gobbled one dwn without chewing !!!!!!!!!!!!
Look at the stoink face !!!!! hahahaha .... i cant help but laugh !! LMAO !! woo hoo ... then we had a few drinks and we had a main course of CHICKEN ~~

Yeah ... finally some normal food.. haha ~ share .. oways the case, oways share. .. and he loved his present .. and the present came from my heart. Home made fairy cakes. topped with 70% pure chocolate. And i painstakingly wrote his name and drew a heart shape on each of my creation.

after dinner, we moved on to CHIJMES for a few more drinks and dessert. yummy chocolate tortino .. niceyy ~~ but fatty fatty ... so i oni ate a lil .. and shucks the chocolate gave me a sugar rush !!!!!

Oooo ~~ happy lo ... den after the mini gathering, he headed on to Orchard Towers for Boy's Tiu .. as in All Boys outing ..

the evening was the greatest so far apart from the hectic wk i had with all those band thingy and festive .. shrugs man ... had an enjoyable and unforgettable time ...

Happy bird day ah how ... ~ grow up lo ~~

~+=Shyn n How Forever=+~

~=+Finally Cleared The Fog+=~

2010-02-03T10:28:00.003+08:00

Hmm~
I've been relatively feeling very tired for this past week. Have been busy with my Band and also practicing songs for auditions with I.O.D (Isabelle's Over Drive). Not too bad, they want me to go for another jam session on the 20th of Feb.. ~hehehe~

Had a very busy Saturday.. met up with Deep Fried Ninja for an interview and some photo shots with them. They are doing a recording for the Bay Beats audition. Wah .. the whole experience for me was really eye opening. You will read more of it in the March issue of The Kiasu Times (TKT). Wooo Hooo~~~ Then rushed of to Back Beats studio to jam with I.O.D .. so tiring cos i cant seem to locate the studio and had to use the GPS on my hp. >__< By the time i arrived i was already dead meat ... dog tired .. Fortunately ended smoothly with not much cocked ups.

Sunday was usual. Spent with the kids at the play ground. Then evening, went to meet Marcus for dinner and movie. Wowie~ +LEGION+ ... the winged creature ... goth-ness .. is HANDSOME !!!! I guess this was about all. But somehow ...... for 3 days in a row i had to sleep for 3 hours only .. thanks to ... thanks to someone .. (the one that shall not be name at the moment cos still cant think of a logical nick.. since he is not happy with using "the leaf man")

Sunday sleep at 5am .. Monday, 4am ... Tuesday also 4plus am ... argh !! think I am aging faster than usual if i continue this way ... nevertheless, the company is enjoyable. and end of the day managed to clear up some fog along the way.

By now, all things are finally at a conclusion. Sometimes, status is just not important at all. All it takes is just communication and compromising. Y bother about someone's past, present or even future when all things are so unpredictable? The most important is the communication and to clear things up when there is doubt. At least we can prevent certain unhappy things from happening.

Hmm~ ... these few nites have been spent hanging out late ... think must go plan out a schedule for me to sit in solitude to start writing for the interviews. This month only has 28 days and i'm still so far behind.. woots ~~ but then, hehe .. feels fulfilling when there is no more misunderstanding.

Ultimately, good things are beginning to surface in 2010 for me. Life has been busy yet, its great!! Never been better. Perhaps the divorce has awaken my inner self and cause me to be passion driven to do things that i have never done before ~~ WOoooo HooOOoo !!!~~~~

~=+Shynna is CONTENTED+=~

~=+Fruitful Saturday with Fruit cocktail Feelings+=~

2010-01-25T14:01:00.002+08:00

wowie ~ never expect that my Saturday (23/01/2010) was so exciting. Well well, i spent the night out on a Friday and I arrived home promptly in the early hours of the afternoon. Took a short nap and manage to O.B.E .. hmm~ exciting ... told Jeff abt my exp .. n he said that i love to dream too much ... ~chey~

I tot that my jam that day was due to be canceled as the dummy KB M.I.A, din reply smses.. but fortunately, things went on as planned. Fiz (drummer) called me and suggested that we should proceed with the jam. So i met Fiz and Lily (bassist) for the 1st time. The experience playing with them is good and final decision - they are in!! which means most of my wkends will be be occupied with music and wk nites will be more focus on Youtube-ing ..

After the session ended, Jeff and I went for a cock session over a few drinks, as usual la, drink talk nonsense.. and then I mention to him some of the issues i have been facing recently. Sometimes, there is so much corruption in the human mind that most times, ppl do not knw what they are doing.

I reached home in the wee hours of the morning. Decided that the drinks are not enough for me, i went to 7-11 to get more servings of the boosts. I sat at the void deck, trying to piece out a missing part of a puzzle and finally i came to a conclusion.

Things, many many things, they happened for a reason. And, usually there is a process that one needs to go thru in order to grow, learn and eventually excel. So far, I have given up certain things cos i wana gain other things. And this slow and painful process sometimes makes me more emo than usual..

1) Move on, dun ever think of Daniel any more.
2) Think carefully before making choices.
3) Never trust anyone u meet randomly.
4) Never give in to persuasion once u have a gut feeling that something is wrong
5) Always put jamming as NUMBER 1 no matter what happens (of cos Darling Nicole is still #1)

I called up a friend after i thought of all these. Spoken to him on some dumb thingy issue. Then we both come to an understanding that "MOST MEN THINK WITH THEIR COCKS."

Lols... yeah, traveling here n there, meeting up so many kuku ppl, i see alot of cocksters, losers, chee ko peks.... i still remembered when i was 16, i dated Tony .. he was then 31 and married. but i din care, cos the mutual understanding of not hurting each others' feelings is there. Years later, i met Peter. Also married with kids. Did i ever care? NO! cos, these ppl are honest enough to tell me that they think with their COCKS!!!

1) They tell me that abt their marital status cos they dun wana hurt my feelings.
2) They wan a discreet relationship cos they feel lonely at times.
3) They buy me things, pamper me, go for movies n meals with me.
4) I'm ok with it cos, I am liberal and feels that all humans have feelings and its always a gd choice if its a "2 way" thingy.

At least they are not those bang n go cases where the men show no respect to the female at all. Using them as sex objects.

Now in this era, i don't think what is there to hide. Honestly .. if ppl are to juz be so fickle minded, just like Charles .. i think there are a lot of suicide cases in SG and as u look in the papers, the victims are getting younger cos their feelings are being hurt.

And also i would like to salute those whom i met recently and are honest to tell me abt their physical needs. But, i have to reject u, cos i dun believe in "planned sex".. if it happens naturally then so be it.. and the point is, its one way or the other. Get to your point. Dun dilly and dally and make the other party feel like am mixed up fruit cocktail. STATE UR FUCKING POINT.

Anyway ... all i can say is i had a fulfilling wkend.. and .. perhaps will be getting more busy cos more projects are coming up.. wooo HOOOooo~~ so looking forward..
apart from that.. i just wish that ppl will appreciate me more.. cos .. i am not a SEX OBJECT @!!!!

~=+Shynna-liciously mixed up fruit cocktail+=~

~=+I don't Like Explaining at Times+=~

2010-01-20T08:43:00.002+08:00

AAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh!!! My laptop died on me again. so recently cant reli update new entries .. and i am writing this EARLY in the morning in OFFICE!!!!!

Things happen all the time. and somehow i am beginning to enjoy the simplicity i am having now. So SO SOOOOooo many yrs i have been a drama mama, drama queen of all times. Having to go through roller coaster rides after roller coaster rides ... ~~~~~~~~~ now that things are slowly taking shape, my band searching beginning to take form, I dun wish for any other distractions.

Sometimes, certain things just have to remain a lil grey. Most times, i cant be bothered explaining when ppl dun understand me.

Why?

cos.. there are too many a times i am left alone in a grey situation to sort out my own thoughts. So, i guess, its time i let others taste back the same feeling ... - being left to think of their own actions.

1) Why begin something you can't end?
2) Why say certain things you don't mean?
3) Why ask for an explanation when you cant even come up with a reasonable excuse yourself?

Yeah.. i think too much at times. i gotten to fucked up by my divorce with Daniel and my break up with Charles and ... perhaps I am locking myself up in a way or other.

Daniel - a guy whom i got married to for 10rs ..
Charles - a guy whom i fallen so madly in love with ..

Not forgetting ... Ah how ... someone whom is always there for me .. but we can never move on to a higher level.. can only remain as friends forever ... And also he is someone whom i really appreciate and cherish for the whole of my life. No one can be as sincere as him as to not to hurt me and not to breech my trust .. someone who carries no bad intentions on me, be it physically or emotionally.

Argh !~~
Weak ... i feel weak. I'm oways afraid of the appearing creature. (for ppl whom have been following my blogs will knw wat does creature means)...
Am always afraid of landing in a predicament when the creature appears.. And of cos i am in a state of a SHYNNARICAL CONFUSION ... cos ....

1) i dunno what he wants from me
2) i dunno if he will hurt me ... be it physically or emotionally ... (at least tell me what he wants.. a fling? a committed or non-committed R/S???!!!!! )
3) i dunno if i should trust him

therefore .. when he asked me for an explanation for the dumb sms ... i got no ANSWER!!!

+sigh+

Perhaps ... certain things are better left unexplained .. .

~=+Shynna is in a shynnarical state of CONFUSION!!!!!+=~

~=+2010, happy new year or happy its near?+=~

2010-01-01T19:10:00.002+08:00

2010!!
cant believe that i am actually home and blogging at this hour. i still rmb that last yr.. i was with him, hand in hand and enjoying our steamboat new yr dinner and now i am all alone at home ... ~ suffering.. ~

i tried asking ppl out. feel like going for a movie. but nobody is free. i even tried calling ah how a few times but ... argh!! he M.I.A on me again ... sometimes i reli wonder what happened to my glam. damn~

used to be having so many progs and parties to attend. after he left, life for me has been in solitude. i try going out to meet new ppl, but ... these ppl seemingly are juz out for nothing but a gd F***K... argh~ wad happen to all the good ppl?

2012 is coming, and more and more corruption is begining to surface. i can see that frm all these recent events, there are more n more evil rising.

i am so bored to the core that i went to youtube and found some vids on The Lost Book Of Nostradamus. He is a prophet born in southern France. And he had made predictions of the atom bomb, the rise of hitler, 911 attack and even the tsunami and hurrican katrina.

and then ... now i chance upon this link below while i was googling more on nostradamus. http://www.ufodigest.com/news/1209/2010.php

its about 2010, WW3 begins in november and blah blah blah.
the strange thing is i had a dream of him returning to me. in my dream he came back to me, telling me that the war was horrible... and now, damn, i saw this link!! WAR in 2010??

is this a coincidence or isit that all my dreams that i have will come true after sometime? i am reli confused. my dreams and visions. somtimes most of them scare me cos a majority of them serve as signs to me. as some of them will come true... most ppl think that dreams are opposite of real life but for me its totally a diff case.

what am i thinking? am i plain crazy? have i completely lost my mind out of this solitude i force myself to be in?

probably i have lost my mind. keep on meditating and praying for his return have made me gone crazy completely abt this EOW thingy and this 2012 event and i google everyday and youtube everyday just to see what more new sources i can find and wish to code break my lucidal dreams ~

~=+Shynna is going NUTS+=~

~=+Why Does It Stil Hurt?+=~

2009-12-27T22:01:00.002+08:00

Christmas has juz passed by. And soon it will be the end of 2009 and the begining for 2010.. and Jan 1st will still arrive.. Jan 1st ... does he still remember? or he has forgotten?

sometimes, i ask myself, is it worth all the effort staying alone in solitude? is it worth being alone and locking myself away from the world?

its so painful.. the pain is so unbearable.

and i feel very vexed each time i have to come back to a place which is not my home.. a place whr i cant hv my own corner and be alone.. sometimes i still text him, juz simple updates about how my daughter is doing, even email him and tell him wads going thru my mind. but i am only greeted with the silent treatment.

anyway ... i have not broken down for a very long time. and i think last nite i did. must be the holiday seasons.. the mood of love n joy and yet i am being forced to spend it wit ppl i barely knw ... frens whom i wrk with.

6mths without him by my side.. and im not reli used to. In the past he used to always be there. no matter how drunk i gotten. probably i have taken him for granted.

somehow, i juz feel a wrong step in life can really make a person wake up from their inner sleep. and ur soul will soon be realised after you have realise you mistake .. wadever they maybe.

the pain .. the sorrow that burrows within the heart .. and makes me feel so numb towards certain things. even food feels blend. nothing seems rite.

perhaps now den i realise the real meaning to the world kinship and family.
the hurt kenot be undone. the pain .. i only hope that time will soon let it heal but looking at the healing process, its slow and torturous

~=+SHYNNA MAY NOT HEAL+=~

~=+LAMO Guys 101+=~

2009-12-22T14:38:00.005+08:00

Sometimes I am really sick of the way some ppl are thinking now a days. I met a few ppl in fact. They come frm this particular webby called WLNY in short.. I guess most of you will know what webby is that. And there are just some ppl there whom are ... i dunno ... low class? perhaps, lewd .. or even .. i dunno.. juz simply cant find the correct term to label them.

I juz had a conversation with one of them today. Which i think he ... argh ....

in the begining was the hi and intro then started to ask abt my occupation. I wrote my occupation as a surrealist on WLNY .. which oftenly makes ppl think "hey, wad's a surrealist?"
Surrealism is the opposite of realism ... duhz !! i blog abt it b4 in the previous entries.

Anyway ... so .. i am an admin by day, a waitress by nite. i Blog .. write .. wadever ... ok juz wadever. Then i am being thrown the "y take up so many jobs? so in need of money?"

Well, as a single mum with so many bad debts to clear - OF COS !! and who would complain of having too much money rite? got extra income then just do it.

The next question i was being thrown is " Y dun u go free lance? u knw the sexual thingy. i knw of many gals who do it to clear bad debts."

Str8 away, to me was like WTF is this guy thinking? Will u ask ur mum or sister to go do such things if they need to clear debts? WTF is in the mind of this bugger?? What is his up bringing like>? OH MY GOTH!! SHALLOW!!! and noting the fact that this is de 1st and it will be de last conversation i am going to have with him. I am juz an acquaintance and .. GOTH! wad an impression he had left.

and then there are some in which ... i dunno ... the next guy frm WLNY :: ~
this fellow ask me if i drink. Well, of cos i do. i am a part time waitress for Goth's sake..
the next moment he say " Come my hse to drink la, i stock up alot of red wine"

WALAO EH!! no money to treat me go out drink izit? or juz simply wana make me drunk den have a gd fuck? CB ... wad is wrong with these ppl? dun even have money to come to the pub i wrk in to patronize? ish~

Some will ask "wat u doin now?"
Dun u guys knw that this is a very VERY wrong pick up line? y dun u just start off with "hi, hows ur day?"
short simple sweet..

the pick up lines i come across in WLNY includes the following below:

* hi can make fren or not? ( lame .. dis is a "make fren" webby rite? so y still ask>?)

* u got nice pic. can make fren? (of cos u can comment on the pic but wad's with the can make fren when its obviously a "fren making" webby?)

* u look hot babe. (NOTE : i hate being call BABE .. ~ewe~ .. guys think its sexy but to me its ... +speechless+)

* HI there, wana go club. u sure wan go de cos u dun look like a "guai" gal to me. (WTF.. y dun u go bang the wall?)

*u look hot, can i fuck u? (SIBEI STR8 FORWARD.. y dun u go fuck ur mum?)

* one wrote a LONG and flowery poem. If i remember correctly he is like 20 - 21.. a long n dumb poem to me is like a major turn off.. he wrote something like " u are the sun in the sky and when we meet up it will be like butterflies floating to flowers as u float gently into my arms"
OH MY FUCKING GOTH!!! wat is dis distorted little boy thinking??????????????!!!!!!!

well ... guys ..
if u wana knw gals, be natural.
choose a not so "catchy" pick up line.
comments on pics, can be simple like, hey ur smile looks great. hows ur day? hope u are doing great. ... etc ...

not the .... dumb lines ... argh !

~=+Shynna is LMAO cos of these encounters+=~

~=+This is What i Call a Real Friend+=~

2009-12-14T13:16:00.005+08:00

Woots ~
Saturday after i went to flush out the damn acid in my tummy, i went to meet Jeff for movie. +Twilight ~New Moon+

Vampire Love ... When Vamps fall in love .. its forever. +Sweet+
Den went to have a quick bite at Burger King. After which went to meet my dear ah how and the Storm Warriors Calvary. ~Army of 15 Warriors in total~

This 15 warriors consist of the ppl whom still knw me as KITTY !! my god !! KITTY!! this name is like 10-12yrs old and yet they still rmb me as kitty. Buahahahaha~

well, its heart warming that they still rmb me. Most importantly is the company of ah how that makes it more worth while. This close friend of mine.. oways so close yet .. aaahh well... our relationship is juz so hard to explain.

we never reli dated. only been so close to each other for all these donkey years. And the reason we did not spark off - we juz dun wana tarnish this closeness that we have developed after so many years. or should i say its an open relationship of 13yrs?? hmmm!~ sometimes it reli keeps me thinking.

He is someone who may not be always physically there but he is someone who is oways mentally there. He knws me thru n thru.. read my thoughts as clear as crystal and his words always keeps me moving... whenever i am down .. depress, i dun even need his long hours phone call.. juz a shout out in my facebook or juz a simple sms with that few magical words... it makes everything so amazing ...

This ultimately close friendship has no words to describe... all i can say is ... after that nite at storm warriors, we went to Nana for a few drinks.. lolss

The frenzy at nana is shit !! no words to describe as well. although i felt sick and tired .. but well, ah how kept me company all nite long. i din drink alot cos he controlled my drinking ... he knws of my medical condition completely well so ya ... he controlled my drinking and my smoking.

Ah how ... shynna ... oways gd gd frens.. lets hope that this friendship can last for the next 14yrs ... and .. lol ... by than we can be hand in hands in phuket!! bahahahaha!!

当每个人都放弃我时，你是唯一一个一直守候在我身边的知己。

蒿

~=+Shyn n How Forever+=~

浪子的眼泪

2009-12-10T13:40:00.003+08:00

人生走了几十年，往往一定会回头看看，然后再问一问自己，着些年来到底逗了以圈，为何还是留在原地？

然而，每天晚上的花天酒地，每天的醉生梦死，一旦过去了，就只剩下浪子独自一人。回头再看，却什么也看不到。一切都是一片黑暗。

浪子只能带着醉意，四出搜寻，看看在夜深人静里，还会有谁来真心凝听他的心事。显然的，难得找到了人，但却没有勇气去面对对方。狼子只好抱着对方，落下了无奈的眼泪。当对方被泪感动时，天也就慢慢的亮了起来。

太阳照旧生了上来，地球依旧不停转动。依然是个全新的一天。每一样事物也照旧的会到了原来的所在。跟往常一样，浪子忘了自己的所作所为，对方也终究回复到重来不认识浪子的日子。。。

着样的生活依旧重复了三个星期。。。。
不知何时才会停止呢？

是种想想，浪子的眼泪是在为谁而落？
这重重的问题还是在对方的脑海里盘旋。。。

每天醉生梦死的生活，过这没有明天的日子，会耐得了多久呢？

对反觉得好乱啊。。。。。只知道浪子的泪以深深的留在对方心里，永远不会忘记。。。。。

~=+Shynna is in a dilemma and confusion+=~

as the ray of day break beyond the horizon, and a brand new day is being welcome, all is back to normal... if its possible, i wish that the nite will never end and that split moment of tears would last ... n not forgotten for the sake of a drunkard stupor.....

my heart is aching .... argh~~~

~=+A Penny Full of Thoughts While in The Office+=~

2009-12-04T16:02:00.002+08:00

Its on of those Fridays in office slacking and thinking of alot of dumb and silly things. And there are a few daunting things in my mind.

A few things happen on and off, juz like a repetitive cycle and it reli keeps me thinking.. hmm~

1) y are there so many ppl who are uncertain of themselves?
2) y are there ppl whom like to start things they cant stop?
3) y are there ppl whom are so insensitive and dun care abt others' feelings?
4) y are there idiots in this world whom like to gif empty promises?
5) y are there ppl whom are juz full of nonsense and shit?
6) y are there ppl whom like to "fly aeroplane"?
7) y are there ppl whom simply love to play ppl out and juz leave without a word??

Geez ... i have no idea how to answer all these qns that i have mentioned above...

perhaps i am the dumb one instead ... argh !!

or

perhaps, its time i change my personality again.
the world can never be simple.. though i've been wanting a simple life, and somehow am leading a simple life... till ..... recent dumb events which i dun wish to elaborate..

everything back to normal now i guess. im juz sad, not depress!!

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!! juz enjoy the simplicity.

~=+Shynna love the SIMPLICITY+=~

~=+The Bak Chai of the Gothic Scene+=~

2009-11-29T23:14:00.013+08:00

I decide to pen this post cos i am sick n tired of the mainstream ppl...
please take a look at the photos that i am going to post here.

They are the most sexy and talented vocalist of the underground scene.

Taja Turenen, former nightwish vox:

Annette Olzon, current nightwish vox:

Sharon den Adel of Within Temptation:

Amy Lee of Evanesence:

They are great vocalists whom i admire. They are not slim. They are who they are and they can deliver beautiful songs to the ppl around them.

SO, to all u mainstream mother FUCKERS who kip on making me feel like a fool when u think that i am FAT n a bak chai.... Think again....

i feel better after looking at them and telling myself tht i am putting in enough effort to do what i feel like doing best. - Jam, n looking forward to future gigs.

my genre is underground metal and ... dun MAKE ME LOOK LIKE DUMB GALS ON THE STREETS... i like my image and will perserver to keep my image the way it is.

Plump and corsetting ...

i wont let u TEAR ME DOWN WITH UR SHALLOW-NESS!! Ah how oso say that i shud preserve my nature as now days, there are no more gothic gals on the streets anymore ... n now that i started jamming, the more i shud keep this image. Not let the words of radio mortals bring me to the pits ...

FUCK U WORLD ... u wont see Eunice anymore. . Learn to EMBRACE SHYNNA!!

~=+Shynna is an underground gothic BAK CHAI+=~

~=+Superficial Environmetn+=~

2009-11-26T17:43:00.004+08:00

Argh~ ...

long time din up date again. Been darn busy lately. Tied up with work, learning songs for jam.. youtube-ing!! lesser drinking than usual for now.

i din even celebrate my bday ... only went to steamboat with mecole..

and during the wkend i went to get my hair cut.

so now shynna has short hair. ^^

finally got a new look.

but there are still ppl out there with so many awful comments given by ppl..

new look = good .. no?

wonder whats on the minds of these ppl. juz cos my company deals with beauty n spa, they have to critise my gothic-ism .. haix... dun ppl have culture now days?

~=+Words wont TEAR Shynna down i HOPE+=~

~=+Weekend+=~

2009-11-02T13:21:00.002+08:00

Argh!

how shud i pen this week's bloggy? hmm~ its kinda disappointing i shud say. I met jeffy on soft, thinking we wana do a nightwish and evanesence project .. but things never wrk out cos bassist was busy with wrk. Staurday cancel, sunday also kenot make it. so it has to be postpone till next wk..

hopefully it will happen ... ~DOUBTFUL~

i went drinking...FINALLY!! on Friday with Kash and the chambers' gang. Fun Friday. Got home half drunk and PUKED!! its so SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO long since i last touched alcohol. lols..

spend my saturday shopping for groceries. Cooked dinner for my family. Went to NTUC, carried a HEAVY, FUCKING HEAVY grocery bag.
And LOOK WAD HAPPEN TO MY SHOULDER after i lug the darn grocery bag home??

Fucking pain. Till now its aching ... shits...

Cooked 3 dishes that saturday. 1) Spinach with seafood toufu
2) Black pepper mushroom
3) Stir fried pork with ginger, spring onion with a dash of rice wine, green n yellow pepper and cashew nuts...........

Brewed a whole big pot of soup -- Radish, carrot, dried squid n dried japanese scallops with a dash of pepper ... ----> TOOK 2 LONG FUCKING HOURS TO BREW IT so that it taste GOOD!!

Packed some of the food over to mummy's so that daddy can have dinner. And.. fucking hell, rice cooker not wrking i had to go to coffee shop to buy white rice. IT was raining ANIMALS that nite .. i had to carry a darn umbrella but still .. i got half drenched!!!!!!!!!!

then i packed some for a friend.. and he AEROPLANE ME!!! claim that he got very busy at work and had to slp at his wrk place.. i only manage to get an explanation of his M.I.A exactly 12hrs later ... n he told me he got nothing to say abt his busy-ness... haiz ..

well well ... we shall see wad goes on the next wkend ...

~=+Shynna's Efforts Gone with the RAIN+=~

~=+Its Friday Again+=~

2009-10-30T17:31:00.003+08:00

Yeah ..

its another Friday. Time for another relax wkend with my family. anyway, i juz gotten my confirmation letter today but juz to realise that my I/C number and designation has been typed wrongly. duhz ..

nvm .. i can wait till monday to get it.

relax Friday ... and ----------->

hahaha ... i am wearing this in the office ...

Finally .. a stabalized income. and be able to clear all my other bad debts real soon. ^^

in the meantime ~STRIVE~

~=+Shynna is Striving Hard+=~

~=+A Little Recent Update+=~

2009-10-24T01:21:00.003+08:00

I have left this bloggy dead for so long. There are times i reli wana juz destory this page for gd. But think of the efford of me doing this up and all those memories, being good or bad, most of which are written here ..

I once told 2 ppl before - memories, lets treat sweet memories as a moment to remember and bad memories as lesson learnt.

Perhaps is like what my aunt said about me, "I have learn thru my broken marriage and am working toward being a better person"

I always tell myself that I am picking myself up from a bad fall. But rarely, i'm just lying to myself. Drink, get drunk, cry, be a drama mama queen. These days are long gone. ~OVER~ The euphoria .. the dreams are just about to begin. I finally learn the essence of being cool and calm.

And i should add that, I have finally pick myself up and am heading somewhere. Those friends who understand me, stood by me. They don't pressure me as they know my plight. I am taking one foot at a time and things have been not the same anymore.

I need more time still. At the very moment, things are slowly taking its form. And i can fore see great things are going to happen if i continue what i am doing now. - work, go hom, work, go home cycle.. - on going for like 2 months in fact. and i am close to my family now.

Still, I have to say, give me more time. I will make a difference this time. Forgive me if I have taken so long to strive. Now, I see the light at the end of the tunnel. And I dug the exit with my own bare hands. Now its only a glimpse but the glimpse of hope will develop into a BIG BIG escape for me..

~=+Shynna still need time+=~

~=+Missing+=~

2009-09-16T13:29:00.002+08:00

Hi all

i wonder did anyone miss me? i hve been mia so long. no hp.. no msn.. no nothing ...

life is all work n no nonsense.. and the fact that i have been trying so hard to do something that i oways been wanting to do -- forming a band.

been ever searching for like a months or 2 now .. no luck.
i either approached by kids who wana do paramore .. or it will be some ppl whom jam dates never came.

did went to jam finally last friday.. not too bad. iron maiden, megadeth and black sabbath.. not forgetting metallica too... but then i doubt that there will be a next session with these guys again... i sense something wrong. but not too sure what it is. those guys are not being honest with me .. or maybe its me being sensitive (that's me now after wat that bitch did to me)..

i dun trust no one... only my own gut feelings to guide me the way ...

argh~~ .... help ~~

~=+Shynna loves to play missing+=~

~=+Probably The Last Post+=~

2009-06-28T20:54:00.002+08:00

Have been so tied up with my work and family issues lately that i have not been writing. after trying to pick myself up so many times in life, i feel that i am back to where i started off with again... after he left... life will never be the same. i have no one to turn to, no one to sheild me from the silence and the ugliness of the world anymore...

i feel that i have seen everything clearly for this past one whole mth. i am now left on my own to go ahead with life.. there are many tings i wana share but then, i cant find the possible worlds in my mind to pen them down here.

time flies.. the world still revolves... n animals are evolving.. shud i say this is wad is called survival of the fittest? ppl fight for things, therefore i lost someone so precious to me cos i took him for granted all this while...

the story that lays behind all the laughters and the tears.. i am all mixed up .. my feelings i bottled up, keep telling myself that i have to be strong and move on with live. dun wana look back ... but deep inside i am screaming at the top of my voice .... telling myself that i am sorry for the thngs that i have done .. telling him how much i love him and how much i love him ... and wad have i become when he is no longer with me ...

i wana tell him so many things ... there are so many things that i would do to make him come back.. let us start afresh .. but no ... he will never ever come back to me ever again no matter how hard i try... i miss him ... n love him .. with every fibre of my cold black heart. i wan him to knw that if given a chance, i would die for him, i would gif up anyting juz to turn back time to where we used to be again....

wad can i do to ever do that? i dun understand how come i dun deserve his attention anymore after all these times of trying... i dun understand wad a vixen with 3 kids are so great abt a woman who once stood by him thick n thin...a woman who has betrayed him and he too betrayed... the hurts that we had inflicted into each other for so many yrs..

someone whom has accompany me from 17 to 27.. someone who watch me grow up ..

our maple story days... our movie marathon days.. days of watching heroes... days of nua-ing together ... i missed the way he practice jiu-jit-tsu on me too...

i learn to appreciate F1, learn to put up with soccer... learn the art of martial arts fighting and muay thai boxing. learn things that he enjoy to have things to share with him.. cook his favourite dishes when he came bk frm biz trip ... try to remain calm when things happen ... how come all these are juz not enough ??? i am now the perfect person that he wants me to be ... but all my efforts seems to be wasted...

all i wan him to knw is that ... things have gone by one mth.. it seems like ytd still .. nothing has changed much.. i am still waiting for his smses.. his phone calls.. waiting for his return one day to tell me that i am de perfect wife for him ....

i wana continue to care for him, be there for him.. despite the fact that he has changed... all these 10 over yrs of watching over each other ... all these sleepless nights of quarrels and fights... how come everything has to be given up cos of a vixen who pretended to be my friend?

i tot i can forget ... but after all these while..i reli miss him so much deep inside.. i still cry when i see all those photos.. i cry when miss him .. i dream of him every night when i sleep.. n that is probably the only place i can get to see him from now on ...... things happen so quickly that i have to force myself to be strong. do things that i like to drown myself out from the pain he left behind... the silence.. the dark nights when i'm all alone...

~=+Shynna is waiting for the day he return+=~

~=+ Guilt or Running Away From Reality+=+!

2009-05-13T01:24:00.002+08:00

Ok ...

I ask a few ppl abt this thing.

What would make a person
1)delete away your whole blogger address?
2) delete away your msn?
3)close down your friendster account n facebook account?

i gotten a few ans....'

some say is cos pf guilt..

some say cos dun wan let ppl knw wad u did in de past n juz wana start anew

some say juz cos u r a dead person ........................

tell me which ans u belong to.. i reli wana know ...

~=+Shynna wana knw the truth cos i miss u so much=+~

~=+Finally ...Time to Write Something+=~

2009-05-06T23:13:00.013+08:00

WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW~~~~~~~~~~~~

how long have i not been writing here? ish~~~ i've been so tired n worn out that i dun have the time to write man...

okok ... so today's post will be longer ... much much longer den usual cos its the updates of most of the recent happenings that had been going on.

Hmmm~~ i have been working in this new n fucked up company for close to 3mths... and ppl there are ... well .... same.... political and only wana save their own asses. and nevertheless i have to put up and tolerate with each n every one of those idiots there, fighting for a kuku dog bone.

kk.... photo updates on May 1st family lunch..
1stly is the spread of food below... yummy yummy .....

enjoy life rite??
then ... there are my wonderful cousins and of cos my daughter, nicole.

and then ... some family time ....
my grandparents ... and me n my baby cousin...

then after that went to meet trissy for coffee and shop shop ... daniel tagged along later that evening on may 1st ...

we went to shop.. then after which we went to sake sushi for dinner ... yeah~~ my favourite..
just take a look at the sashimi combo that we ordered!! wow~~

AND..... LOOK AT THAT WIDE OPEN MOUTH~~

the happy man gets his sushi!!

yayaya.... den that was how i spend my public holiday ... all on food.. no wonder im putting on more weight!!

the following saturday i went to meet my bestie... joanne and christine for beer .. den went home early to kip nicole company .. sians lo ... den came bk again to another monday blue...

after work went to drink with ah hao.. went for cheap beer .. fking hell ... hp went out of batt den no more photos to up... ish!!!!

k lo ... eventful rite? more eventful than when i was with lifeless charles. at least im doing things i like now. wahahahaha

ok la ... dunno wat write abt for now .. will blog again when i have time .. i wana go hit they hay stacks now ... nitey

~=+Shynna found her life back+=~

~=+End Of The World+=~

2009-04-22T20:30:00.003+08:00

I just have to write about this ... its so errie.. so true...

Last yr, my friend told me that the world is going to end. The date given to me was 2012 Dec 21st. I swear that she told me this. I eventually told charles about it and well, being the skeptic, he don't believe a single word and we eventually had a mini debate over it. He even blamed it on me n my goth culture, saying that i was being over sensitive and immature...

WTF... i went to drink coffee with 2 friends just now. And they told me about last nite's news. NASA apparently confirmed that on Dec 21st, 2012, the sun's UV ray is going to hit Earth and all of us are going to be cooked ALIVE!!!

Its like .... i come to think of it... WTF.. WTH .... y so eerie??? y so true?? i swear that i am telling the truth.. i knew abt dec 21st 2012 last year!! i reli found out abt it last yr!! and it was out in the news last nite!!

WTH... If any of charles's friends read this, please tell him that the debate we had last yr was true!! everything is going to end by den ....

Friends, cherish what u have and who u have now. although scientists at NASA are trying to solve the problem, eventually by then, nobody knws if the problem could be resolve!!

those who laughed at my predictions last yr, go to hell ... it was in the news last nite.. wadever i say n have said is the truth!!

~=+Shynna's predictions are real+=~

~=+Life is ....+=~

2009-04-20T01:37:00.003+08:00

Life is:

a paradox to me. I am known as the drama queen of all times and things r always never normal.

Life is:

Filled with ups and downs and i'm very sure it applies to each and everyone of us. We walk, fall, pick up, learn, walk and eventually evolve to fit the ever changing environment.

Life is:

oftenly fill with questions and there is always the ultimate WHY!!!!

Life is:

never predictable, mysterious and unknowing. You never know what you are going to get out of it.

Cherish life. Cos, you only get to live once. you never know that at the next moment, you may get the best out of it, or even the worst out of it.

Live life once, live it full. This is something that someone taught me before. and to this very day, i finally see the true meaning of this saying.

Be thankful for every opportunity given, be remorseful for every mistake that had been made. Be enthusias for every new day cos, not everyone live to see tomorrow.

^^ Cheers~~

~=+Shynna is finally enlighten+=~

~=+Busy Busy Busy+=~

2009-04-05T23:51:00.004+08:00

Wootsy ~~ ... its been a long time since my last entry. i dun reli have the energy to write abt wad's reli going on recently. My new job makes me feel so tired everyday. Its not physically draining, but in a sense very mind bogging... ish~~

So many new things to learn and so many different systems... ish~~ kk ... dis past few wks also was a few wks of nothing much different. -- Every night oso go drink. every nite oso no diff.

Well, having come to dis new environment, i am hoping for a change. hoping that i can make it futher den b4.. and having to come to a new environment means having to meet new ppl ... and ... most of them i shud say, have the EQ of 0%... ish~~ how worst can it ever get? ppl who talk n never think, ppl who dun gif instructions clearly..
maybe im new n i dun reli knw them so to me i dun reli understand their lingo ... so it makes things a lil difficult to catch up. da di di da ~~ or maybe ppl think that i am weird... nvm ... im oways weird n nvr normal ... juz trying to fit in i suppose ...trying to be someone that i am not ... again ... i come back to dis issue of who shud be who.... ish~~ -_-!!!

today' entry will be a lil longer den usual as i have not been updating and i reli got hell lots of things to say...

i miss wai kit, i miss xin, i miss mew, vivi, wendy, suki n not forgetting TIFFY~~~ ... i miss so many ppl whom i have not been in touch with... except the so called kampong, i dun miss... ish~~ they gif me de creeps. those minds of theirs is more weird than mine... ish ish ish~~ -____-!!!!!!

i went to a chalet organised by my family de following wk after my sis got married.. den de rest of the days i spent them .... >>>>>>>>> DRINKING... wad else?? its like a favourite pass time now.. not that i am rich. juz tt i have reli gd frens, ppl like johnson, joanne, christine, not forgetting nicole n zamien (de MU couple) ..

and yes yes .... ppl muz be wondering, wad happen to all those freakos that i oways get to meet in my life... k, its de end of 2008 rmb?? its all over. no more freakos now. i choose not to meet them up, even though there r still on facebook n msn.. ppl whom get on my nerves n dunno that they pissed me off... ish~~

besides all this shit, everything is still going on fine. still paddling gd... still recovering from my finaces, but wrking fine, eating fine n i hope no more black fridays cos ... this coming friday is >>>>>>> GOOD FRIDAY~~

lets hope good things come on this day ^^

okies, photo of this wk.... the normal shynna ...
hao hai lao gong ... i guess u r rite. the society kills us n destroy our dreams .. look at me!!! where is gothic lolita shynna?? no more liao .. in dis photo u can see its juz a normal me....

i got killed..

~=+Shynna got killed by society+=~

~=+Cant Believe It+=~

2009-03-30T11:41:00.001+08:00

i am snagging arnd in my office while my seniors r busy... lol

silently writting dis post ..

my toothache!! my pay sux!! ... pls help me

~=+Shynna is having a TOOTHACHE+=~

~=+Burn Out+=~

2009-03-20T00:33:00.001+08:00

There are some things i simply don't get it at times...

Maybe im just pushing it.. ISH~~ ><

wadever is the reason, the case ... i am me ...

If u think that i am getting too far at things, tell me, juz don't evade me.

T_T

~=+Shynna is trying too hard+=~

~=+Friday 13th+=~

2009-03-15T17:52:00.003+08:00

OMFG ... should i call it the BLACK FRIDAY?? !!

ok, last friday, i was almost late for work ... dun say la.. tired. due to the flu meds i was on n the cough syrup.. sure next morning feel more groggy den usual.

reach office 1st thing i got an sms frm my sister. and she told me that her ROM party is THAT NIGHT ITSELF!!! her reason for this last min sms is cos she FORGOTTEN... ><

how nice.. and i dun even knw wad time i can knock of cos i am new at my office and i go loads of things to do that day and everything is so new to me. T_T

den... at last.. i manage to finish off at 6.30pm tt day ... n blah .... while walking out of de office building, MY SHOES BROKE!!!!!!!!!!! god damn it!!! i had to run home to get my shoes changed den rush to take an MRT to simei ...

when i arrive at simei, i took a cab to de destinated condo. Bloody hell... the cab driver goon dooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we arrived at the condo den he drove me round n round n round juz to locate the darn club house n when i finally alighted, it cost me $8 !!!!!!!!!!!! from simei mrt to savahna condo cost $8!!!! fucking hell...

i was late for de solemization... n i got so lost in de condo n even went to the wrong function room!! ><

bloody shit .....

i saw my uncle n y cousins den i approach them. they lead me to de exact location. den feeling hungry, i went to de buffet spread, only to find A FEW PIECES OF PASTRIES LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arrrrrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~ exhausted n hungry after a long days work n i get NO FOOD!!!!

>< ......... ISH~~~~~~~

so i juz make do with 2pcs of pastries den went to de nearest vending machine to get myself a can of coke and a pkt of cheezels... YESH~~ tt was my dinner for de night!!! T_T *SOBS*

the bride(my sister) and de groom was so busy taking photos n entertaining their frens n relatives i was left stranded in my corner... duhz ... nvm nvm i can make do wit corners no worries.. sat there for like 1hr den i followed my mum arnd to help the couple n their frens take photos. i oni manage 2 photo shoots wit my own sis n tt was it...

at around 9plus mum n i decide to go home. ok lo ... tt was de end of de so called party , nothing exciting at all. ...ISH~~~ ><

while on my way home, i called up a fren to chat cos i need to travel a long way. den to him, KAOZZZ!!! its also a BLACK FIRDAY!!!

His useless gf used his credit cards to sign for shopping at the IT fair at suntech, made him carry all de shopping goodies and din even care abt his feelings ... damn ~~

He den told me that earlier that morning, he witness his dad fall dwn ... WALANZZ !! his dad fell back n hit his back n head!! his dad was originally not in a gd shape n now this!!!

god damn .... its reli blk friday INDEED!!!!!

i finally reached home around 10plus close to 11... went to tabao my LATE LATE DINNER of chap chai peng (economy rice) BUT ITS NOT ECONOMY AT ALL!!!!! 1pcs curry chicken, cabbage n 1 pcs toufu COST ME $5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DAMN IT... y do they call it the economy rice in the 1st place????!!

ok nevertheless i upload some pics for u all to take a look... and MY GOD I HAVE GROWN FAT!!!!!

~=+Shynna had a black Friday+=~

~=+Phantom+=~

2009-03-08T01:52:00.001+08:00

Phantom is someone whom exist but ppl rarely come across with them in real life.

Having reconcile things back for like 3mths redi .. hmmm there are still so many things that dwindle in my mind.

1) i wonder is dis forever?
2) i wonder if im doing the rite thing?
3) i wonder how long am i going to be the phantom?

YESH ... i am the phantom. Ppl knw of my existence. but they rarely come across with me face to face. How long is he going to hide me? how long can my relationship last like this?

Maybe i should move on. Forget abt dis reconcile thingy n find myself another guy .... geezz ....

~=+Is Shynna doing the right thing?+=~

~=+When Harry Met Lala+=~

2009-02-21T17:09:00.004+08:00

I wonder why I gave this title to this post .... but never mind, i just named it anyway.

When Harry met Lala, they had the purest of pure frenship. Its a sweet, devoted, memorable moments of their lives. Tentatively, they grew up together. They enjoyed each other's company and cant live without each other.

Time flew and they both grew up. Gradually they got busy with their own things and drifted apart. Few yrs later, they heard from each other's frens that both of them had found their life partners. Although miles apart, Harry n Lala wished each other well and moved on with their live.

After a time frame again .. Lala broke off with her life partner and also learn that Harry too broke off with his life partner. Then they started texting each other and meeting up as and when again. Though they were not as close as before, Lala knew that some feelings never change after the lapse of so many yrs. But Lala remained in a state of confusion as Harry told her that he is contented with the frenship that they always have.

One day, Harry invited Lala to a party with all his friends. And somehow ... Lala found out that Harry actually had someone in mind ... At that moment, Lala did not really think of anything. But after the party ended, Lala went home to have a deep thought over things. And OUT OF THE BLUE, Lala felt her heart feeling sour and her vision blurred out... soon... tears started to flow down her cheek.

Lala asked herself, why is she crying ? Does she reli liked Harry so much that she cried, after knwing that Harry has a heart for someone else?

~=+SHYNNA NEEDS SOME ANSWERS+=~

~=+ Long Time No Blog +=~

2009-02-13T02:02:00.004+08:00

Its been a long time since i last blogged... sians...

2009 shud be a better yr i thought ... but everything is still de same ... slog slog slog like there is no tmr but still as broke as ever ...

think think think n the world still has to go round. i lost a few bastards in my life. n now my life is nothing but wrk n go home.

decided to quit partying for now .. reli feel so fucked up at times when u finally realise tt those ppl whom i tend to cherish r those who im trying to avoid nw...

lucky still got kit n chan wit me to kip my life worth while .. haha ^^ n neverthe less .... 8 letters 3words 1 meaning is still lingering in my head. although its already going to be a yr ... march 5th will mark the day when i almost fell into the pool last yr .. ahaha ~~ long story ..

since he has already removed his blogger n does not wan me to be in his life any longer ... i tot that i have moved on but ... i dunno ... dis strugle . maybe the fact that i never did love b4 n when i finally found something too gd to be true, i jumped str8 in witout even thinking wat is waiting for me on the other side.

life is never fair. never was, never is. never will be. try to win my heart now .. but i can tell u, wat r the chances? its so slim till its like totally no chance at all ... xians to de core ... cant help but have dis feeling.

though now is attach .. but got bf n no bf makes no diff, no spark no surprises.. i dun even feel my heart beat at all.. 2009 a new yr a new begining ... this is wat he told me when he hugged me so tight ... lets start all over again ... i looked back into his eyes ... n i was only happy for that moment ... cos watever that lies ahead has no meaning to it.

i will never remarry again .. n never have a chance to have anymore kids in my life despite the face that i love to have 3 kids... now i only have nicole, n if i continue to be wit him, there will be no chances of having anymore .... cos .... its anther tale to tell ...

i feel so fucked up that i have to pen this fucking long entry ... cos i knw the future for me is like last time .. no change .. juz slog. back to the slumps... back to the days i spend endless nites on the net gaming n toking to strangers ... back to the days where i work n be broke ... back to be all alone ...

no love ... cant feel it ... simply cant feel not even a pinch of it at al...

can someone advise me ?

no ... i dun think so ... or sad to say ... i dun need anyone at all ...

~=+Shynna loves the silence of being alone+=~

~=+New Year, New Look+=~

2009-01-18T22:37:00.004+08:00

Yeah ... finally got my new hair do. i got it done like 3 times in a wk to perfect it.

This was the initial look ... and its like rather plain. and my sister said tt i look like a 40yr old tiger promoter from behind...

Geezzzz.......

then i went to add some fake extentions.. then i kinda achieve the punk look ...

and finally .............. .............. ............ ............ ............ ............. ............. ............ .......... ......... ...............

The Red Hair SHYNNA~~~~~~~~~~~~~

hahahahaha.... CNY ma ... red means luck!!

~=+Shynna Wishes All a HAPPY CNY+=~

~+=Confuse=+~

2009-01-09T04:58:00.003+08:00

Sometimes cant help but feel confuse and juz dun seem to knw which is de correct route to choose ... which is de correct path to make..

I seem to still miss him so much so much in my heart ... juz so much that it hurts...

help...

8 letters ..... 3 words .... 1 meaning....
does he still remember??

(i love you)

~=+Shynna misses him so much still+=~

~=+Merry Christmas n Happy New Year+=~

2008-12-28T20:51:00.012+08:00

Woootsy.. ~~ how time reli flies n its another christmas gone by .. i actually spent eve at home.. den the actual day itself was at my ah ma hse like any other annual thingy ...

Take a look at the christmas tree and presents !! ... as usual its the kids that got most of the presents.

Wah kaoz~~ the christmas spread!!

food food n more food ...

Yes... This is shynna's share of the christmas spread!! this is my christmas platter ..... delicious ...

now u all knw y shynna so fat ... lolss

YESH .... Fat shynna by the christmas tree!!

WAH HAHAHA ... Sibei fat ... die la ...

no ppl wan liaozz... T_T

Then ...,

WE have milo peng n soya bean ....

we r reli sisters ok ... she is shynna's mei mei ...

one so black one so fair.. one so skinny one so fat!!! its reli heaven n earth!!

Finally ...

i have someone who look alike ...

lolsss..

shynna n my mama!!! we look alike hor?

heess..... soya bean n soya bean ... ^^

Last but not least ....

shynna n her lil princess.. enjoyed christmas dinner at ah ma hse ...

juz like every year!!

say la vi~~

~=+Shynna wishes one n all merry christmas n a happy n better 2009+=~

~=+Addiction+=~

2008-12-20T20:59:00.002+08:00

These words keeps going on and on .... These words...

"I tie you up, and you will resist me. But deep inside, you are enjoying every moment of it."

~=+SHYNNA IS ADDICTED+=~

~=+In The Dark Abyss+=~

2008-12-14T14:51:00.006+08:00

Behind every closed doors, every tainted windows, there lies a dark secret.. it holds and upkeeps the darkest passion of all times. Yeah... tt's rite.. im talking abt a dark passion play call hentai .. or most ppl call it role playing or abnormal sex play.. re-enacting rape, teacher-student roles... mostly involve bondage and pain ...

Usually the dominant will be a male and de "subject" a female ... the "subject" is ripped of her dignity and willing to do almost anything the dominant request her to do ...

Scenes like this will be playing over and over again ... and the dominant will get a kick of toturing, the "subject" get a kick out of every torture...

Both are willing parties ... seems like a rape scene .. but no... both r enjoying it in every aspect ... sex... its such a simple thing which bonds a couple together ..

Yet it is also something that ppl abuse and get addicted to it ...

~=+Are you a PORN/SEX addict?+=~

~=+SHYNNA IS CRAZY THIS WEEK+=~

~=+Pretty Late Entry+=~

2008-12-09T01:26:00.006+08:00

Oooookiessss.... shynna did celebrated her bday dis yr and i knw its kinda late to post it .... i got a few shots taken but only decide to up 2 of them ... cos shynna was having a pretty bad sore eye tt day n dun look pretty in her shots.

Thanks all those who turned up .... and also .... surprise surprise, tachi was there n he even paid for my DRINKS!!! kakakakakaka~~ after so many years of misteating me ... he finally treat me nice .. maybe cos its my bday.

Chan chan.. hao hao lao gong... after knwing u for 10 over yrs ... finally u CAME TO ATTEND MY BDAY !!!!!!!!!!! thanks for the present ... its deeply appreciated. >>> Ayumi Hamasaki's latest compilation album ... thanks. ^^

A Tribute photo shoot to Hao ... we look so sweet ... so ppl wana knw is he de creature tt i am toking abt? Erm ... No .. he is not... my creature is not Hao n he will never be that creature..

Oh ya .... n princess shynna wana hao lian abt her latest look ....

Sibei Sweet rite? Ppl sure say i slim dwn de... of cos la... juz recovered frm a car accident lei ... long sad story .. dun wana tok abt it here.

Nevertheless... as for de new creature? i keep it in suspense 1st. will let all of u knw once i confirmed if he is de CREATURE tt is real n not de one like Charles whom BROKE ME UP COMPLETELY....

STAY TUNE.... SAY LA VI~~

~=+Shynna cant stop thinking abt HIM+=~

~=+Dont Tell Me Its another CREATURE??+=~

2008-12-07T22:46:00.003+08:00

Oh God tell me that this is not happening .... since the last creature came n left the void in my heart... this is not suppose to happen. i tell myself so many zillion times never to let another creature into my life again ...

and yet .... and yet.... i think .... there he is again.... OMFG... dun do this to me pls..

Little Miss surrealistic is thinking too much again ... how can i feel this way at this moment if my life?? duhz....

1st was tachi... a creature that came into my life for 8yrs...

de 2nd creature is Charles... tt idiot who messed up my life since we broke off in july... den now....

this creature... the 3rd.... the 3rd idiotic creature... will he leave the void even deeper than those previous 2 did?? ARGH!~~~ .... shynna is so dead...

somehow i still rmb how Charles appeared so unexpexctedly exactly last yr also around this time... but everything was cut short dis yr in July ....

Den now also somewhere after my bday ... there he is .... the new creature jux unexpectedly APPEARED juz like how charles did .... WTF~~~~

I dunno wat to do ... maybe let time prove everything... i dun wana take anymore gambles... when Charles left... my heart was already torn apart.. shreded infact ... so now ... dis new creature....

is he out to steal my heart away juz like charles did? OR is dis for REAL??

~=+SHYNNA IS FALLING AGAIN+=~

..... u knw wat i mean ... falling... as in falling in ... L**E..

P/S: its juz a 4 letter word... LOVE... its de begining of all hates and the source of all curses...

Vulnerable Princess .. Little Miss Surrealist .. >> Dreamer >>

~=+Tribute to a True Maple Friend - Chong Wai Kit aka OptimusKit - +=~

2008-11-29T01:46:00.002+08:00

Its the wee hours of the nite and here i am blogging again. As usual i juz finished a chat on msn wit kit... aka optimuskit - fire poision mage of the moments guild in casseopia...

Having knwn him for like close to 2yrs and dis 2yrs with him in de game was sweet .. days of training to lvl up... days of hunting maple items... days when he comfort n console me nite after nite when that bastard charles dump me...

and now, i realise that his grandma had juz passed away... gees... i can oni offer him words of comfort n encouragement... he helped me alot for dis past wk.. he even offered me a loan when he is so far away in m'sia... he is such a sweet fren ... someone whom i reli cherish and someone whom is oways by my side... not literally but in terms of the heart...

now that he is also going thru a hard time, i din even offer him pak kum ... i feel so guilty n bad... kit oways got a big heart and oways put others b4 him . he has no refusal to ppl's request.. big or small, so long its within his means, he's oways there to lend a listening ear, a crying shoulder, a helping hand. ( are the rest of the moment members going to kill me if they read that i praise wai kit till so gd??? f3)

now that he is slowly recovering frm the heartache of his late grandma, we meet rather oftenly on msn... chatting.. toking nonsense and even planning to meet up in person... is either he come to sg to meet me or we meet in jb ... and spend the wkend tgt.

thru many episodes in our lives, i hv truely learn the meaning behind a thru frenship.
frens are ppl who - 1) be there when each other are in need and dun run away.
2) in terms of distance, we r still closely connected thanks to the technology of internet and also sms..
3) dun mock at each others' problems and try to solve things and even try to see things in each other's point of view.
4) talk nicely to each other n not snap at each other all the time.
5) dun blame each other rather smooth things out tgt in terms of discussion and not forcing each party to accept one opinion.

kit, u have taught me all these things.. though many ppl may not see things eye to eye, nevertheless, u may not agree wit me all de time n vice versa, we enjoy each others company on msn n sms so much...

is this the start of a relationship??? dunno ... guess not... oni time wil tell..

lastly i wana add, waikit, u r de best... thanks asiasoft for creating maple so that i can knw waikit...

most importantly, wai kit ... - U DUN OWAYS SO HUM SAP LA>>> lolss....

~=+SHYNNA TRIBUTES HANDSOME KING CHONG WAIKIT+=~

with love...
shynna
******* p/s: this blog post was requested by chong wai kit.. is he ask me to write abt him de.. but watever i wrote here is frm the bottom of my heart.... hee^^ *muackz*

~=+ The Evil Shynna +=~

2008-11-20T03:08:00.002+08:00

I've been doing this for sometime now... i am desperate... i cant lose it again ...

sometimes having resort to evil is the best way out... i await the outcome of my evilness... hahahaha... *evil laughter*

ehems***

when the rite time arrives, i will see the results to my pure evil... shynna is tired of being sweet...

i think i shall let all hell run lose this time... no more looking back

~=+Shynna unleashes HELL!! +=~

~=+ The Ever Searching Shynna +=~

2008-11-16T22:25:00.004+08:00

Time flies.... its yet another 2008 going to past soon....

and still i stand here, ever searching... i dunno what i'm looking for... rather aimless.. work for de sake of living my days... having to fulfill my drinking pleasure.. when will it ever end? when will that deep void be filled up?

sometimes, i reli feel that i am juz so hollow and empty... i trust the wrong ppl.. and ppl took my trust for granted...

i dun wana grow up... but, its juz part of life... will he ever forgive me n let me die together with him like what we had once planned??

no one knws.... i juz wana turn back time.. hoping that none of all this rubbish had ever happen.. wishing that i had never made de wrong choice again....

tell me what am i suppose to do to make him ever trust me again.... its all so hard.. i am still looking for the right answers ,, but who or what can give them to me?

i wana release myself from all these misery.. but what muz i do to move on? how am i suppose to forget all the things that i have done when everything is my freaking fault? i juz wan him to forgive me... i wan him to knw how sorry i felt for all these episodes... and i wan him to knw that i am always here... always here to protect him...

everyday is a living hell to me.... its empty and worthless.... only the day when he can put everything behind and hold me in his arms again... will only be the day i can wake up and never be a living dead anymore.....

i wana feel my heart beat.... i wana feel it again... he is so near to me and yet so far,, de barrier... de distance.... its all my fault..... how can i ever make him understand how stupid i feel inside of me?

what am i suppose to do? i am ever searching......

no one can ever heal me.... no one can ever reach into my darkness ever again...

my days are numbered,,, there are limitations coming my way.... i feel tired... i wana gif up and i guess.... the time is soon......

~=+Shynna is ever searching+=~

~=+ Some People Who Claim That They Care +=~

2008-11-13T00:52:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it reli sucks when u knw that u care for someone whom u think that they are frens but they dun even bother to reply smses or even call....

They claim to be busy. Claim that i belong to their Kampong... But c'mon...

after today, i finally see how clearly these ppl whom so call claim that they care are ppl who only care for those who belong to the same class as them...

Now i realise why Hui choose to be dis way.. some ppl say that Hui is selfish... but hey hey.... who started it 1st?

i still remember that i was in a cab, i over heard that the 3 bitches actually went out together... treated each other meals.... den i realise how dumb i am today... n how dumb i was thinking and treating them as my so called best frens...

well well... she used to teach m daughter tuition.... den upon agreeing to certain terms, she went missing.... den a few days later, she told me she went away on a trip on a last min basis.... pls la!!! wan go overseas can last min?

den frm tt time onwards, she no longer reply to my sms anymore... set alone, not answering my calls....

for my bday 2yrs ago, she gave me a precious moments frenship card and wrote a touching msg behind de card.... so i guess she muz be reli that darn damn fucking busy till she dunno how to reply sms...

but today... i see clearly... those who so call my kampong kakis... they dun exist!! not even one. even the one whom i knw for 10yrs... she sucks too. now i realise the agony that Hui has that cause her to do certain things which make ppl pissed...

i was in office... den i realise, 12th nov.... its her bday.... i smsed her to wish her...

AH HA!!! this was it!!!! now its already pass midnite....

tell me abt it.... quiet since noon... blah.... some kinda fren.,, wonder what kinda excuse she has dis time?

cant stand all dis office bitches.... when u dun meet their standards, u r out!!
O U T ~~~~~ out~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am not going to contact any of those so call kampong KAKIS or watever they claim they may be....

YOU ALL FUCKING SUCK!!!!

~=+SHYNNA IS A HERMIT +=~

~=+ Long Time No Blog +=~

2008-09-21T20:17:00.002+08:00

When someone is sway, everything goes wrong... lost my hp.. lost everyone's number... what's worst? its a prepaid... means now i got a new number... shit ....

When a person i sway, all fuck happens... got revert back to see a doc at IMH... ARGH~~ i finally lost it all.... over so many things that had happened in my life... wonder when will peace ever appear... wonder when will all these ordeal ever will end...

What can be more worst? Some physco bugger appeared in my life... aiya... another one of those who needs attention from me... its not that i dun wana gif.. i juz feel that i am not ready to gif... i need time... i need courage...

All things had not been smooth.. all things had gone wrong...

I dun need anymore idiots to bug me ... esp those who cant make up their minds... those who act as if they care.. those who wana gif but i juz feel that he is not ready to gif... maybe age gap... maybe personality... but i guess its de personality... scary physco idiot... attention seeking idiot... as if my life not messy enough....

i dun need anymore nonsense... i dun need anymore problems.. so pls... back off n gif me peace... back off n let me settle things my own way... u r definately not the one that can ever show me the care and the concern that i wan... u r not the one...

my heart is dead... this void.. this darkness... it will never go away... someone came n stole my heart... n he had oredi torn my heart into bits... no one can ever fill up this void.. this ambysimal hole.... nobody can ever fill this emptiness...

so if u think u wana try fill it up, please... dun try... cos it will never happen... i feel that you need someone whom can gif u de attention.. juz too bad that i cant gif it to u as i need it more den anyone... i am rendered helpless myself...

when dis creature came into my life at the wrong time .... stole my heart ... reap it up... no more... no more creature can ever gif me de sense of security anymore.. no one... no more...

shynna is dead....

dead to the world.... shynna is helpless.... numb nut.... shit ass.... gone.... no more strong gal...

juz a torn apart dolly in the labyrinth of no return...

~+= Shynna is dead to the WORLD =+~

~=+ 十二莲花 +=~

2008-08-28T17:51:00.004+08:00

第一可怜罗莲花出生风场昧快活
凄惨落泊就是我做牛做马也得拖

第二可怜莲花酸苦命莲花心头酸
后母不为仔打算想要嫁人也久长

可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代

第三可怜莲花姐坏命做工到半暝
头烧目晕那是病破病也得去赚钱

第四可怜莲花代好坏人客阮招待
十分招待嫌阮坏要打要骂又要塞

可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代

第五可怜莲花种有人实在无同情
也无外多钱阮用要打要骂又要种

第六可怜莲花城流落欢场歹名声
后母爱钱无爱仔迫到阮呀无路行

可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代

第七可怜莲花红阮是可怜歹命人
后母当阮不是人害阮痛苦一世人

第八可怜莲花头流落欢场昧出头
后母顾前无顾后害阮暝日目屎流

可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代

第九可怜莲花时做了这行已几年
可怜家人无相见阮嘛不知企叨位

第十可怜莲花光归暝做工到天光
想到有厝唔汤返终身再也难见光

可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代

十一可怜莲花怨想到身世真哀怨
后母迫我做这款越想心内越超烦

十二莲花无了时堕落黑暗难见天
少年赚钱是一时老来怎样过日子

可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代

~=+ Eating Disorder +=~

2008-08-27T16:10:00.007+08:00

Anorixia nervosa, Bullimia nervosa.. over eating.. purging.. binge.. not eating.. these are disorders which can kill... eats you up slowly from the inside..

it becomes a cycle. a never ending cycle..

and this is what you will become in the long run..

<----- nothing but a heap of bones...

although many ppl knw the consequences of this disorder, but many a times, they will still resort to it to loose the extra amount of weight..

Most of the time, the victim does not knw that she has already gone below a healthy weight, she often sees herself in the mirror as someone who is too fat..

but in actual fact, she is skinny to the bones.

most ppl purge, so call force themselves to throw up..

till it becomes a cycle. they tend to eat alot of greens and most times drink alot of coffee and smoke alot..

begining to sound more n more like the symptoms that i am having.. i dun even remember when was the last time i had a proper meal..

i cant eat.. i force myself to do so but oways end up in a vomiting frenzy..

I DID NOT FORCE MYSELF TO VOMIT..

I VOMIT cos I FEEL VERY SICK INSIDE.....

maybe i am reli sick inside... sick in the head perhaps..

well...

i did suffer from something like that before which was 10yrs ago... i puke all the time.. slowly i recovered from it..

now its like a relaspe..

last time when i puke i feel scared that i might die... but now when i puke.... inside... i feel great having to puke out everything... OMG...

shynna is reli mad....

hmm~

i ask myself what is the reason that i cant eat, i dunno... i juz feel better when i dun...

what is de reason i cant slp... maybe i juz hate facing a a new day... i ask myself again.. izit cos i miss him so much..... i cant seem to be able to answer that qns myself... geezzzzzz.....

how long can my body endure this kinda vomiting episodes?

how long can my mind take all these emptiness??

perhaps after i become a heap of bones then it will be enuf..

perhaps if someone comes along and is willing to take care of me all over again then will be enuf...

perhaps i need another creature n not long for that creature whom has flown away...

perhaps... perhaps...

anorexic or bullimic... i have it anyway.. i dun care if it kills me... i dun care if it eats me up inside.... its oways better than having the darkness to swallow me up ... i let this sickness take over my body ...

~=+ SHYNNA HAS EATING DISORDER +=~

~=+ Sometimes I Really Need Someone +=~

2008-08-24T17:17:00.009+08:00

Look into my eyes... Tell me what you see?

Listen to my heart... Tell me what you hear?

Is this the way u look at me? Is this the way u see me as?

Can anyone tell me what is wrong with me? Can anyone feel me?

The emptiness and sorrow.. this darkness that swallows me..

I shout at the top of my lungs... each time to hear myself shouting back at me ... that same old familiar voice that shouts and shouts ... to be welcome back by the echoes of nothingness.

~=+HELP+=~

Can anyone hear me?

Can anyone save me?

Does anyone know the dejection of this cruel and realistic world?

I still remember that day when he held me in his arms.. that very day he told me that he cant live without me.. it seems like its only yesterday..

I never seem to have forget every details.. those words that ring in my head .. OVER AND OVER AGAIN...

That creature that once flew into my life.. stole my heart away..

But have to end it by destroying my every dream over in a single nite..

I wana forget.. but how can i ever do that?

That creature that once loved me so deep ... that creature that cause me to have this ever going dream night after night..

He may never ever come back anymore..

This dream.. this hope.. has turn into a living nightmare and embodied itself into my soul...

He told me that he does not like me to be emo.. but he is also the source for me to feel emo all the time.

He wants me to stay positive.. yet he is the one who made me into a negative idiot.

He wants me to stand up tall, walk up high, yet he is STILL the one whom push me into the open seas to drown....

Izit his fault or mine? - maybe nobody's ...

He juz need to think over his actions.. why did he pull me out of my shell, left me in the open and let me painfully... slowly... be eaten up by this cruelty?

This ever so wonderful creature.. will there be anyone like him that will find back my heart for me ?

Or will i be left like this? always having to look into the mirror and tell myself that i am looking back into this world with loveless EYES??

~=+Shynna needs someone+=~

~=+ Life So Busy +=~

2008-08-21T23:25:00.008+08:00

kenot believe that i so SO SO SO SO busy n tired that i did not blog for so SO DARN FUCKING LONG....

Its my 3rd week with success and i some how begin to feel the tension n arrows of politics liao... haix... something which i hate so much but frm now on got to face and play wise.... T_T

sibei sad~~

nevertheless, i still manage to go out to drink... ~=+YIPPIE+=~ ^^

<---------- SEEEEEEE

FAT SHYNNA N HER MARTEL!!!

WootSsss~~

juz like good old times of drinking once a wk at a pub after a hard wk of work!! lalalala~~

sing k....

drink martel.... den go home slumber....

yeah man... dis is life of singlehood and open book r/s

no worries no hassle. ^^

but hor, in dis pic, i look so haggard n tired... of cos la... like shit.. morning go office face office politics and den nite time still need to teach pesty kids tuition... no choice la... ppl dun wana treat me like princess and pamper me... i pamper myself with MARTEL~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Er... i oso got some fucking old pics frm 3wks ago i wana share.... dis angela lo... took her own sweet time to send them to me .... duhzzzzzzz....

Aye!! Shynna act again lo... kanasai !!

LOL... went to shop for sunglasses 3 LONG WEEKS AGO!!!!

<----- si bei act act la....

try to be dunno like wat shit... try try try and try..

but cant seem to find de correct pair..

Ok ... Me ... showing de trade mark 7 sign again lo..

chosen a darn kuku pattern specs ...

yet din buy ...

hahahahaha cant seem to make up my mind at all lo...

End up... i all oso din buy ... lol

TMR IS FRIDAY.... ~=+YIPPIE+=~

I CAN GO OUT TO DRINK AGAIN....

~=+SHYNNA IS NORMAL AGAIN+=~

~=+ Tribute to Jammers +=~

2008-08-10T02:06:00.004+08:00

Wow~ ... 2am.. sit here write blog after a shag week. after of 5days str8 of wrking in an office n nite teaching .. reli makes me so shag out. but nevertheless, i still will update my blogs. This is the only place where i pen down my thoughts and feel.

While i was travelling in the bus earlier today, something pop into my mind. I realise that i do miss my dad. the thought of him reminds me of those days where i used to sit at hiw wrk place n watch him and his band members jam on stage. YESH~ my daddy is a multi-talented musician who plays the guitar, bass, keyboard and also the drums.

Hmm~ for like more than 20yrs in his life, my dad earns a living thru performing gigs and jamming. the music he used to play includes Deep Purple, Metallica and even Kiss. As age caught up on him, he moved on to playing hokkien songs and chinese pop. i still rmb during the late 80s n early 90s, he used to play for the band call "HongKong Stars" (was a famous band at tt time for Canto Pub) and den he moved on to "Typhoon".

i rmb him practising at home, rehearsing the parts he made mistakes over n over till he perfect it. My dad is amazaing. He needs only like a few mins to learn to play a song. his love for music is extreme..

i recalled a time when i was playing lacuna coil over my mp3 player n he heard de guitar solo. he came into my room and went: "WOW ~~ nicw threading!! " he den sat dwn on my bed n head bang to de song. lol... its a guitar solo peace by lacuna coil n nightwish called "the ghost between us "

daddy jammed thru his whole life. till dis very day he is still earning a living from it. he now plays at a sleazy place at jalan sultan rd.. n ironically, he got a part time day job. he plays for funerals... lol .... nite time play for humans, day time jams for de dead!! LOLSSS ><

and he has taught me how to appreciate all kinds of music but i selectively listens to them. after i grew up, i got to knw a circle of jammers too. they kip telling me tt de society nw kenot reli except them and its hard to make a living thru jamming. well, although its kinda true, but i oways believe tt dreams come true in ur heart.

if u enjoy what you r doing n u r constantly doing it and enjoy every aspect of it, UR DREAMS HAVE COME TRUE.. JAM~~ JAM~~ JAM~~

its not how ppl look at u to determing ya fantasy but its how much u put effort to fulfill that dream. ppl like hao hao lao gong n his band members are doing it, not for a living but for a dream come true point... and de rest of de ppl like honey n ifran.. they jam for de sake of happiness.....

i tribute all jammers n wish that they will continue to live for de dreamssssss~~~

*PS/ DADDY I LOVE U ... CONTINUE TO JAM... ROCK ON~~

~=+SHYNNA TRIBUTES TO ALL JAMMERS+=~

~=+ Reunited +=~

2008-08-08T13:28:00.002+08:00

Dreams are the desires of the subconscious minds... as i have written b4 in my previous entry.

Several a times ppl often think that dreams do come true.. it only comes true when u have a good foundation. and if you think that the past had been to ugly, then i think its time you can forget n forgo that dumb dream of yours.

i also realise that recently, i got into contact with many of my long lost frens... thanks to facebook.. lol ... and i learnt many juicy gossips too...

Gossip 1) Tan Pei Jing and Peter Ow are a couple... patch back after close to 14yrs of puppy love back then in sec sch...

Gossip 2) haha... its my info... Hao n I have not been in contact for like de past 7yrs... but then, we r still loving after all.. lolss.... ( i shud state that dis is an open book relationship with NO SEX INVOLVE!!) so ppl who r interested in him or me can still make your advancements.. haha^^

Gossip 3) dis is only my speculation but i guess one of my guy fren juz broke off with his gf.... duhs.. i am so kpo..

nevertheless, i am happy that PeiJing and I got united with our so called love ones after so long. and on the contrary, those ppl whom think that they have no chance to reconcile with their so called OLD FLAME can FUCKING MOVE ON~~~ no point lingering over something that is so FUCKING worst situation!!!!

~=+Shynna is reunited with Hao after 7yrs+=~
*ps: open book relationship!! ><

~=+ Success Recruit Consultant +=~

2008-08-06T00:55:00.002+08:00

OMG... juz de 2nd day attach with success ... i am all burnt OUT~

Day in office busy like one fuck.. nite knock off teach tuition... Dis is de life of shynna LOLITA... nevertheless.. its fun . i love my JOB... and i wore LOLITA BLOUSE TO WORK!!! YESH~~

Lolita in OFFICE... good hor? i nvr throw my culture.. and also, my master tell me tt i am going to get a new tattoo soon. WAHAHAHAHAHA..... YESH~~

Shynna going to get a new tattoo on her back.. wonder how izit like to have a traditional thai tattoo on my back? its going to be traditional way of putting the tattoo also... needles.. nails... ink..... going to love tt process~~

~=+Shynna is getting a new TATTOO+=~

~=+ La'Dies +=~

2008-08-03T22:25:00.010+08:00

Woots~ finally sunday... rest day... but i guess not.. haha..

Today is La'Dies Acoustic at the red dot museum. ^^ of cos i went to support them. My hao hao lao gong... is must go de lo. ^^

Here is a snap shot i took with my lao pok hp. duhz... resolutions sucks to the core!!

nevertheless.. i had fun. ^^

Erm .. ok la ..

then here is hao hao lao gong...

got feel got feel... he play till got feel. ^^

HAHA.... i actually crop Hao Hao out from the main pic...

this image is so blur... my photoshop skills sucks... cant manage to make it seem clear.

T_T

Hmm...

den after the perfomance of i think only 4 songs. its de end of the acourstic le.

although its short but its fun.

<------ Princess NUALIAN and Prince NUASAI !!! LOLsss.... (inspired by hellboyII princess nuala n prince nuada)

This is not as fun. the fun part will arrive on august 30th. its a saturday. La'Dies and a few other bands will be performing at siloso beach at sentosa. Hao promised me tt he will bring me to play beach volley ball ... juz as i had written in my previous entry tt i wanted to try THE SUNSHINE!! LOLS...

so very looking forward to that day.

ok. as for august 30th performance, its open to all, so frens .. if u all r interested to join me for a saturday of fun, beach, the sun, and watch their perfomance pls PLS sms me, EMAIL ME AT kayumi_80@hotmail.com oso can.

it will be reli fun. performance starts at 6.30pm - abt 11pm plus plus. but before that i think i will be there around like 4plus to play beach volley. COME COME LAI LAI LAI... JOIN ME ~~ ^^

~=+ Shynna n Hao +=~

Prince Nuada~Amaranth

2008-08-03T03:39:00.002+08:00

~=+Prince Nuada~Amaranth+=~

sibei handsome!! plus nightwish song!! MATCH!!!

~=+ An Apology +=~

2008-07-30T19:43:00.003+08:00

Dear Tiffiny Melavino Kie ( my best mate ),

erm.. i dunno how to put this but i do hope that u will at least read this post. im reli reli sorry to have messed up 4mths ago. i knw i cant undo the hurts i left in life.

i met up with steveo recently and he told me everyhing .. everything he confessed to u ... yes , me n steveo had a past.. but that was so long ago. i din mean to kip it from u.

i juz feel that what is past its gone.. i juz hope that u can bury it away and come back to reality. steveo did not mean to hurt u and i din mean to hide it either.. wat steveo and i had was like a childhood fantasy and things did not work out for me n him.

Tiffy baby.. if u have a heart, please think of all those gd times we spent together b4. all those ups n downs we used to share. i am so much closer to u then steveo ever was. i did not tell u abt me n him was cos i felt that was not important.

if our frenship was so vulnerable, its wud be so unfair for de both of us. u knw wat we used to share and u knw wad we once had too. i was stopid to have chosen charles over u, i learn my mistake baby.. tiffy dear... if u ever read dis post... pls call me ... im so worried sick...

and now tt steveo even told u abt me n him having such an ugly past... i kwn how cheated u feel... pls tiffy baby... gimme another one last chance to explain.. we can make things better...

i love you baby... pls come back..

~=+ SHYNNA IS SORRY +=~

~=+ My Weekend With Hao +=~

2008-07-27T01:57:00.012+08:00

Yoyoyo~~

Dis weekend was a lil special.. no more with Charles.. my Saturday is no more Charles' Day.. its back to Shynna's day.. yeah... freedom n GOTH!! most important is GOTH GOTH GOTH~~~

me and Hao..

we went to plaza sing to catch the X-files...

i had phantasmagoria eye make up n dressed up in nana's dress.. so happy at last.

i can walk proud with my head high n not oways so uncertain cos i feel so shitty being normal and blended into de crowd.. duhz ><

now no more lo. being me, i can walk proud. walk tall... walk high!! hahaha^^

Hao and i acted funny in de train.. lol....

juz geeking around!! dunno wat we're doing.

LOL

anyway... X-files de movie is SUCKS!!! Hao and i almost fell asleep in the cinema!!

it was not anticipating at all wan lo!! duhz.... no fun... its about human experiment. something call cell transplant or something, like frenkenstien lydat.. many body parts cut n make into a new human.. not nice de la.. boring.. no gore no blood.. Hao n I fuck de movie up n dwn when after we finish. lolzzz

We went to take neo print .. juz like same old times. ^^

haha^^ but too bad lo.. i no scanner cant upload de neo prints. maybe next wk den i try to up.

but hor, u all dun za dao when i upload our neo-prints o... cos de pics r ... tentatively zadao~~~

kakakaka!!!!

den went to walk around plaza sing.

geek around again... lol ... den thick skin shynna tried to KISS HIM!!! make him ZA DAO!!!

lol... was juz teasing him la... haha^^

den i decide to snap shot de photo n up it here!! lol .... we reli ish boliao.... 2 heart broken souls, comforting each other ... juz like old times. ^^

Nothing reli much after tt lo. went

to eat burger king...

both of us dun eat alot de. shared a whopper meal tgt... cut half ..

den i think tt's abt it le.

den dis nua sai king decide to go home le ...

i oso made my way home... slowly uploaded all dis pics to share here with you all lo.

~=+ SHYNNA WANTS TO BE ADOPTED +=~